HISTORY OF THE FUTURE, Book 1: Meeting With Happy Smile (Part One)

After an attempt to share a past trauma of mine – to point out how my approach has changed now about that experience, and how grown I am after the pain I have encountered in my life – within my first words, I felt Kirill’s looks on me, with his elevated eyebrows.

I understood what I was doing and I shared space with myself to step out of my autopilot mind.

What was the point of going back to the past and using their attention to put into a version of me, that I was proud to evolve into something new? It was already past.

I understand the game they were playing deeper that second.

I decided that I truly want to let us all be new and free from our pasts, to live a fresh life without any assumptions or limited beliefs of yesterday. (Which took a long time to get used to.)

So, I decided not to talk about my past, what university I finished, how young I am, and what is the age of Happy Smile. Even I was super curious about that part.

After our food was done, I was feeling quite elevated and content, as if I were in a slightly different, happier realm.

I heard this island is built on rose quartz rocks, which are known as ‘love stones’. Island magic, I thought.

Then the man without money asked me if I wanted to go to their villa.

“Oh?” I said. “A Villa?” ‘Yeah. Happy House,” he said with a very big smile on his face.

Kirill started to share proudly how he made a pin for their place on Google Maps.

It turned out to be that same house, on the same street where I was staying, as you can guess.

Since it was next door to where I already was staying, I agreed easily, to go and visit their villa.

On the way, they shared with me the story of it.

They stumbled upon this abandoned villa (or ‘lost villa’, as they call it) while exploring the island. It had a pool and furniture inside.

The owner hadn’t been in Thailand for the last 3 years. By chance, they managed to contact the owner through his lawyer. And they found a way to stay and even host parties there.

Kirill’s eyes were shining in a way while sharing with me his perspective about Happy;

‘Happy hacked this life, somehow, and he always finds his way to be landed on his feet, in any scenario.’

We went to the villa. There were a few cozy yellow puffs on the terrace, which Happy was very fond of. Palm trees in front and the pool behind us, it was such a beautiful place to relax.

We lay under the sky full of stars, touched hands, and listened to a music set that he mentioned he had recorded.

“I do DJing,” he said, his eyes shining with love, as he spoke about his music.

The amount of love a person could share with mixing music was something I couldn’t fully grasp at the time.

“I love all the music. All music is made by love on this planet, there is no other way.” He said. He was very passionate about it.

Piece by piece, I allowed myself to immerse myself in his music and into his arms.

A few days later, he shared with me that he had promised himself not to make any moves on any lady until he heard “I want you” from her lips.

“With you, there weren’t any questions,” he said. “It was clear you were following your wants. You wanted to be near me, and you were sure about it.”

Waiting for a woman to approach him, and wanting the first move or expression of their wants, truly, could be tricky for many people, I thought.

When he shared more about this matter, “Oh baby, before, I believed that a woman could not be interested in men without any money” he said.

In his past life, he paid for everything every time. He even encouraged his other male friends to pay for checks and provide fully, in many cases. And in his past life, love was correlated to having and using that money to get the attention man wants.

“You are the first one that is not interested if I have money or not.”

3. NOT A REGULAR HUMAN PERSON

I started to figure out more about the dynamics between Kirill and Happy Smile.

After being alone for quite a long time and diving deep into his consciousness, Kirill entered Happy’s life.

With him, Happy began to understand more about how to connect through the alive frequency he now carried.

Even though their focus was on creating a business, Happy was also mentoring Kirill to feel more alive and happier by sharing his lifestyle.

He supported him to believe in himself more – to be aware that he was creating everything in his reality, one way or another.

For Kirill, it was now time to create consciously, with true happiness and love at the center of his plans..

Kirill seems very impressed with Happy’s knowledge about life and the experiences he got to have with him.

One day he shared with me that he had a near-death experience, and that Happy brought him back to life.

After that time, he started to understand Happy’s energy differently. He got convinced that Happy is not a regular human person.

I felt like he got into a new reality with Happy Smile, and it was all a new concept for Kirill’s processor.

I wasn’t understanding the process he was going through. Over time I understood that “being alive” means living life in awareness and playing in life as the main character, as a person who has a big attention in making the right choices.

It was a big transformation in life, and around those times, Kirill was feeling the pressure of it.

After lots of intense Russian conversations I witnessed between them and their friends, I started to understand what was going on a little better.

Happy was a former businessman with many creative ideas.

He was sharing revolutionary ways with Kirill – to build a very big, never-before-done type of business around the Happy Smile brand.

Since we met, without exception, in every one of his conversations Happy talks about love and happiness. Even when it was about building any type of business around the Happy Smile brand, his priority was that everybody involved would be happy smiling – and earn equally.

During those times, I felt I had already thought for a long time about the concepts of love and happiness in my life.

I was sure happiness was the ultimate truth and goal in my life. So deep down I was thinking Kirill might be not so rooted in these concepts. Surrendering to life and starting to trust in it, might take time and it was okay.

Happy became such a welcoming and natural character in my life all of a sudden. I wanted to support and understand his vision in any way.

We had many talks about many plans he has for the future. I kept wanting to share my visions on it in any way I was able to, to make it a dialogue.

It was very challenging for my naïve mind and ego to accept that there were wider waters to swim in.

(It took me time to fully understand that the only way to receive new information was by emptying my cup first – a cup full of past information and beliefs.)

Step by step, I understood that he had thought of and planned many steps toward a beautiful future – not only for himself, for everyone who would want to be involved in it.

He had clear plans and steps toward a future I never dared to imagine. Hearing about it was growing my belief in a happier future.

Our conversations made me realize that supporting people to happy smile was also making me happy smiling.

On the second day, I woke up to find that everything was moving very fast. When people were not talking about the past, there were lots of future plans being discussed.

With feelings of happiness inside, Happy and Kirill started to share their plans for the coming days.

The plan was to make an event in front of the 7-Eleven shop where Happy will be playing as a DJ and start growing attention around the Happy Smile brand.

It sounded like a fun event to attend – sharing about love and happiness, meeting new people, and enjoying good music. I said ‘all right’ while thinking it would be great to see him playing for the first time.

“And do you want to do this event, for free?” I asked, knowing DJs get lots of money on the island for the events they do.

“I am not touching money baby; we are only interested in donations from people who want to donate for it.” He said.

Kirill showed me a plain brown box and said, “Here, we even have a donation box.”

I took the box on my lap with pens and markers, and started painting and drawing happy smiles intuitively while we chatted about the event.

When I was done with drawing, Happy looked at the box and showed it to Kirill;

“See? Only now, we have the true Happy Smile Donation Box. She did it with love and not for any expectation from me, it is not for me or you. Wanted, and did it.”

I was surprised at how he spoke about my smallest action as if I had just built the whole business myself.

I was really happy smiling and motivated to follow my genuine acts towards this project. And shared that I also want to draw a poster for the event.

Kirill shared with me that they got a blank canvas staying in their house for a while now, with quite a surprised face.

Happy seemed very chilled about the idea of playing in front of a supermarket.

“It’s open 24 hours. All island comes here at the end of their night.” He shared.

“Oh? Where will you play there? Is there any place for you to put your setup on?” I asked.

“For me it’s easy. I will bring our 4 yellow puffs there, take the controller on my lap” he said, like that’s what he does all day, every day.

He has this attitude toward life: everything is super chill for him.

Happy was speaking very basic English, time to time getting support from Kirill and Google (from Russian to English). Still, everything he said was direct and sounded deep to me. His vibe was continuous, coming with one unwavering frequency – true, unapologetic, and without the 2334 to prove anything.

I was extremely glad to find a man who seemed to have a deeper interest and understanding in life, in happiness. I wanted to dive deeper into those topics and understand them on another level for myself too.

I started a new Instagram page called ‘HappySmileReality’ and began sharing our events there. It felt really good to support in a way, that I could.

In a way that Happy was truly interested in. He wasn’t interested in many things in general.

It’s better to say that he was only interested in subjects he wanted to see in his future. Only when there is a true goal inside, and that goal contains happiness, love, or happy smile.

For him, the Instagram account was a way to bring valuable messages into this reality.

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“Happy smile, he said, – is the indicator of true feelings of love and happiness. Not only ‘happy’, or not only ‘smile’.

‘Smile’ alone might not be happy, and even the word ‘happy’ by itself people could use to make not the best creations.

‘Happy smile’ is the right choice of living. I want your happy smile. I want my mama’s, this tree’s, children’s, animals, even this table’s happy smile. Following happy smile only brings more of it.”

4. “WHO THESE SONGS FOR?”

Two days in, we found ourselves cruising around the island on Happy Smile’s scooter. As we rode along, I started singing a song;

‘Mr. Lover, lover, mmm, mr. Lover, lover, mmmmm… She calls me mr. Boombastic, tells me fantastic, touches me inna me back, she say,– i’m rooo-..’

It was a song called ‘Bombastic’ by Shaggy that I enjoyed singing. Happy was momentarily taken aback and asked me where I knew the song from.

To me, it was a funny question – I mean, who doesn’t know that song? For Happy, my choice of song carried a deeper message. Playfully referring to him as ‘Mr. Romantic, Fantastic mmmm’ seemed to carry a deeper message.

I discovered that this song had been in his life since childhood. Even though he didn’t understand any of the English lyrics, he mimicked the voices after listening to them many times.

I was picking these waves of feelings inside of me, as my mind whispered songs and themes that felt highly correlated to his story on this planet, mirroring his journey.

For years of my life, I had been listening to many of the songs from his sets – over and over again, singing with them, driving with them, loving them, and feeling a deep connection.

He shared with me that he didn’t even know where those songs came into his laptop from and he even named a few sets as ‘Who these songs for?’

A few weeks before our meeting, I was riding my motorbike in India, in a town called Auroville. It was a remarkably serene evening, yet I felt a little somber inside, almost like missing a person I had never even met.

There was a song stuck in my head, though I couldn’t fully remember the lyrics or the artist. The melody grew louder and louder in my mind. I stopped near a banyan tree and sat near it to check Google, trying to find and listen to it. I wrote a few words from the lyrics that were coming to my mind:

“I’m falling… ninini ninini for change ninininii nii niii niii.”

Still, I couldn’t find the song. So I simply sat and allowed myself to feel the feeling I was going through.

And then, right after I sang Shaggy to Happy, he sang THAT VERY SONG to me! – a deeply moving song called ‘Shallow’ by Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper.

I want to send you a little beautiful message dear past me;

Believe in yourself that even when you feel confused and don’t know what is going to happen, amazing things are waiting for you.

Believe in yourself. Even when you feel confused and don’t know what is going to happen, trust that amazing things are already waiting for you.

When you are done swimming in the shallow, life will carry you into greater oceans you have never experienced before.

Trust. Time is here to support you.

Thank you, dear divine time.

Life is very funny in its own way.

I choose to believe even more that the universe supports humans with similar goals to come together in their lives. And that nothing is a coincidence in this beautiful life.

Thank you, dear beautiful universe, for supporting me to find my Happy Smile.

I want to understand you more.

5. WHAT IS LOVE? WHAT IS HAPPINESS?

In the first days of meeting Happy, I found myself thinking about the concepts of love and happiness way more frequently.

Despite teaching yoga for the past few years and having a deep appreciation for these concepts, I realized I still struggled to define or describe them clearly. Even though I felt their presence in my daily life, putting them into simple words was not easy.

What is love, truly? How can I put my finger on it and share it simply, for myself even?

Questions like ‘Does he love me?’ or ‘Do I love her?’ stirred conflicts in my mind whenever I went deeper into that rabbit hole.

Then, Happy offered his perspective: ‘Love is attention in my reality.’

At first, I was taken aback. ‘Just attention? What about the feeling of it?’ I questioned.

‘Attention is growing those feelings,’ he shared patiently.

“Sharing my attention with the tea I am drinking, is making me see and appreciate that tea. Sharing my true attention with my body, while I am washing it for example, makes it possible for me to slow my mind, and come to the moment. It is giving me a chance to share my love with the action I am taking.”

So the question that had been in my head – ‘Does a person love me? Do I love them?’ – solved itself faster than I could imagine:

When anyone chooses to share their true attention with me, they love me.

When I choose to share my attention

with anyone & anything, I do love them.

This simple equation became a transformative realization. It cut through the complexities and gave me a straightforward guide.

Wow, wow, wow – the simplicity of this enlightenment was liberating.

“Whatever I share my attention with, I grow my love towards it. By sharing my attention = I am loving it, I am inviting more of it into my life, into my future” Happy Smile shared.

I wanted more clarification, “Does that mean when I talk about the problems in my life, I am loving and growing those? Or when I talk about that one person I don’t like—”

“Hahaha, yes,” he interrupted with a smile. “You are growing those feelings and inviting more of them and similar experiences into your future. That is your creating power. Where you choose to use it, depends on you. What you think is true. Start thinking how you want it to be.

“Wow” I thought. My habit of ‘just mentioning things I know’ was actually inviting similar examples and experiences into my life. I am going to be way more careful about where my attention goes.

I liked the quote: ‘Where focus goes, energy flows.’ I felt that it was time to share my true attention with it and take it seriously.

In that moment, the connection between attention, love, and creation became clear. The power to shape my reality lay in the choices I made about where to direct my attention and, consequently, my love.

It was a powerful reminder that every thought, word, and conversation is contributing to the creation of my future.

6. BEING SURE GROWS SELF-BELIEF

My whole life, I was in awe of passionate people – passionate about what they doing in this life. Whether it was about what they were studying, what they were doing as a hobby, or choosing to follow as a career.

It seems to me that those people were ‘lucky enough’ to be sure of what they truly wanted in this life. They seemed very happy about their choice and what those choices were bringing into their lives. They had plans around it and paths to follow…

In contrast, for years and years, I took pride in multitasking. Being super-fast with tasks I had in hand seemed like a useful skill that people around me often spoke highly of it.

Absorbing Happy Smile’s insight made me realize that, in my rush to accomplish many things, I wasn’t able share my true attention, with anything I was doing. I was “just doing it” for the sake of being done with it. No patience. No true attention = No true love.

I was a ‘jumper’ from one project to another. I usually became better than the beginner level, collecting future-promising skills within me in many of the things I shared my attention with. After a while, though, I would move on to the next thing.

It became clearer to me that I was creating borders between myself and the outside world, while also doubting my own skills.

For the last few years, I have enjoyed being inside my body, connecting and discovering philosophies to set my mind and heart free.

One thing that was truly fascinating to me was spirituality. Spirituality was filled with messages that ‘everything is possible in this reality.’

Eager to believe in a life larger than what I had been taught or experienced, I delved into various spiritual practices. My journey took me through the realms of Yoga Philosophy, religions, Shamanism, Sufism, astrology, ancient mythology, and even witchcraft and Reiki, among many others.

Each held its own set of systems, rules, beliefs, and books, often discussing the concept of love, and how to be happy and healthy. Yet, none of them provided a clear and simple code that I could incorporate into my daily life, free from the rigid (or soft) rules of their systems.

By sharing my attention with these topics, systems, and beliefs, I was also giving my power and time to them in order to understand life a little better. Understanding myself and truly finding myself inside of this big game, was my goal all along.

What was not clicking inside my soul was how to be sure of myself within a system I hadn’t created.

Am I truly grasping and experiencing the whole philosophy and purpose of these systems, as they were created many years ago? How possible was it for me to speak with sureness about them and all the details they contained?

From experience, I can say: yes, when I believe in them, they work for me somehow. Still, it depended on the level of belief I had in each topic.

Being 100% sure about any of these systems didn’t seem much possible for the near future of mine.

So, thank you to all the beautiful humans who created these systems – and many more – for the betterment of humanity, to support evolution and self-discovery in this reality. I appreciate you, and whoever chooses to follow any systems out there, I want their freedom to do what they want.

For myself, I want to grow my self-belief through the topics I can speak about with sureness.

I am not interested in directly sharing information from a ‘book’ I only read. I want to align with the information that comes my way through beautiful sources and grow rooted feelings toward it through experience – so it feels true within and reflects into my outside world.

From this perspective, I choose to share only my true experiences – information I can speak with 100% certainty – freely, with anyone, at any time.

My goal is to happy smile.

My goal is to grow self-belief.

And being sure supports that growth strongly.

7. SLOWING TIME

I guess the intensive talks and deeper understanding of love came a bit later in my journey. The first month of our meeting, we were in Thailand, and I was floating into that reality with a fully carefree mindset.

Happy seemed super carefree himself. He didn’t have a phone, there wasn’t any water or electricity in his villa, and he was always super happy to be on the beach at any time.

I remember him vividly – in leopard-printed swimming shorts, with his long, slim body and toned abs, a happy smile on his face (and tattooed on his neck), hugging the ground. Motionless. I could leave him lying down and find him at the same spot hours later, possibly in the same position.

He was really serious about contact with the planet and nature. He had his own way of it. Even though I was already feeling beautiful feelings toward nature, I didn’t fully get back then how deeply connected he was.

He often gets super excited about the big rocks we see around the island. Pointing towards the big ones as we pass by, to show me too, with big excitement.

Contarary to me, he was far away from being a spiritual hippie— not doing ceremonies, yoga, or even reading books in general. Yet he was super equipped with different kinds of information about the planet and life on it.

The more time I had with him, the more I started to understand that all the information I had been seeking from books, teachers, and gurus was coming to him from his inner world.

As if he had some type of inner internet, downloading all the information directly into his consciousness. And slowing his time was his key to tapping into it.

By living as an example of slowness, Happy shared with me the opportunity to tap into the magic of life. When I stopped rushing and consciously slowed my time, I began to catch glimpses of “alive moments” – aligning myself with a slower frequency of being.

And when I dare to think about the very smart, rooted characters – especially the feminine, even fictional, ones I had the chance to look up to – I recall that they were all far from being reactive or fast. They were mostly observant, deeply aware of themselves, and tuned into the energy of their environment, of nature, and of the alive beings around them.

It may sound simple, yet how many times could I truly say I had slowed time completely – to share my full attention with the earth, with the ocean, or to look at a dog and understand her beautiful inner world while being fully myself?

What if we all have that inner internet and haven’t figured out how to fully tap into it for longer periods of our lives?

8. “7-ELEVEN EVENT”

On the evening of the 7-Eleven event, we gathered all the equipment, posters, and the donation box with happy smiles drawn on it. I jumped on Kirill’s bike to meet up with Happy after.

After a while, I was shocked to see Happy behind us, driving his motorbike like a pro with two big yellow puffs balanced in front. He created a hilarious scene that brightened the day.

We set up everything together. Happy sat on a puff with a mixer on his lap, ready to start playing.