Simple Truths of Life

In the case of facial expressions, I just needed to train myself to live in the present, which I tried to do so many times, but I would always withdraw into myself – into my thoughts and subsequent fantasies – when I remembered about problems with my appearance.

As for dating, I decided that instead of asking questions about something, you should immediately openly say that I want to get to know the person. Such honesty will save time for both me and the girls, and most certainly there will be no misunderstandings because of which I would later blame myself, thinking what if the girl would want to get acquainted with me if I talked about something else. There is only one truth.

I began to throw off my barriers in other areas as well.

For example, for the first time I decided to study in detail the porn sites that I often visited. It may seem strange, but in the length of all the years that I had the Internet, I just opened those websites in order to find a new girl I liked, do my thing, and go hate myself for my weakness of will and for breaking my own promises not to masturbate from now on. I found out that for some couples it was the job to film themselves having sex, upload videos to a porn site, and get percentages from the ads shown in the video. Something like freelancers, but only in porn. Eh, if only I had a girlfriend…

Due to poor health, I could not go far and walked in my area. I began to look for girls who could sit somewhere alone, in order to go up to them for acquaintance, but there were almost none of them.

I decided to try dating sites. It quickly became clear to me that without normal looks there is nothing to do there. And my spiritual experience and accumulated knowledge were of little interest to anyone. I decided that a direct physical acquaintance is the best option for me. Firstly, I could learn to speak and train myself to stop being afraid of girls and communication. Secondly, even if I met someone online, then during the meeting the girl might not like me, and we both would have lost our time in correspondence in vain. When meeting in nature, I would show myself as I was, and the girl could immediately understand whether she liked me or not. The same thing applies to me, of course.

Plus, I know a story when on a dating site a girl was being deceived by a woman for a long time, posing as a man. The liar was not shy about accepting gifts from the girl. Therefore, in any case I would try to make an appointment with the girl as soon as possible so as not to spend more time on scammers than necessary.

I also decided to look at sites for sex dating. I was looking thus for a way to overcome masturbation, thinking that it would be easy to find a girl for sex. Essentially, I returned to the state in which I was up to my decision ten years ago to lose my virginity to a prostitute. But here it also soon became clear that appearances decide a lot when several hundred men contest for one girl…

Around May 20, 2017 I walked at the Cherkizovsky pond. At the fountain I noticed a girl who was taking pictures of herself on the phone. I walked closer. She was not my type, but I thought it would be nice to just talk to her about something to train in communication. I asked her about the carnival which took place at the pond, and she readily answered. We continued the conversation and then went to sit on a bench.

We talked about what we did in life and talked about ourselves. She came from the eastern regions of Ukraine, where hostilities had been taking place.

In the process of further conversation, it became clear that we had several common themes.

We went for a walk along the boulevard. There I told her about Thiaoouba, as she said that she was interested in such things. It was pretty easy. And then I decided to honestly tell her about my experience with prostitution and other life things. It was also not at all difficult, since I did not have a particularly strong attraction to the girl and would not lose anything, but it was a chance to gain new knowledge, looking at what my honesty and directness would lead to. She took it all more than normal.

During the conversation, she mentioned that she was previously married, but then divorced. She also could not have children. She clearly blushed when she said this. On the one hand, I felt sorry for her, although I understood deep down that her barrenness was the punishment for a mistake in past lives. Alas, this fact also made my eyes light up a little, because I could not remove from my vulgarized head the thought that I could have sex with her without a condom and other means of preventing pregnancy. Suddenly the girl became more attractive…

I began to hint to her that we could meet some other day for a walk. And then she abruptly began to shake her head in different directions, saying that I was not her type. It was obvious that she could barely hold back a smile, if not a laugh, saying those words. She gave me her phone number, in case I wanted to meet to “have a coffee”, and her page in VK. We parted walking in different directions.

I remembered again that I was no longer a handsome guy. But what about the facial muscles? Did they also continue to show something strange? It seemed that I was quite relaxed… but I was not completely relaxed. On the one hand, it was a failure, but on the other, I had something to work on in my self-improvement – I still had the hope that if I start living completely here and now, when I need it, then maybe I can still find a girl and love. I also noted the mistake in my thinking when the girl said about her infertility, and I tried to remember it so that I would not do such things in the future.

But I also had one doubt. What if she did not want to date me because of my story, and not because of the appearance? I did not ask her for details since the story cannot be changed, and I still had to say the same thing to the other girls, looking for one who would understand that what is important is who the person is in the present, and not who he was in the past.

Also, I played video games for the last time that spring, starting to develop myself and not game characters. To do this, I would type every day in the search of an Internet browser a variety of questions to which I was looking the answers. For example, I could write why a girl turns away from me; best places for meeting people; or if anyone else had ever masturbated for more than 9 hours without a break. And I would find each time that someone had already asked a similar question before me and received an answer. Each time it made me feel better, as I began to see that I was not the only person on this planet who suffers for making mistakes – an obviousness that had been hidden behind my blocks and fantasies for many years.

This was the answer to the question why I yelled like crazy playing in Dark Souls. I saw in the depths of myself that I was wasting my time doing something that could not make my passing life any better. But I could not change anything at that time, since I did not have the necessary experience and knowledge for such a drastic change. Falling in love with the blonde girl was the catalyst for these changes.

On the night after meeting the girl from Ukraine, I had a second lucid dream. I wrote her about this, asking at the same time a couple more questions. She answered me after many days, but we did not communicate anymore.

I would like to write a little about my lucid dreams, since they play a quite important role in my life, and they also helped me in understanding of certain truths of the Universe.

In my first lucid dream, I rode the subway from Sokolniki to Preobrazhenskaya Ploshchad’. Then I for the first time gained control of my “body” in a dream, having the ability to consciously look around and move around. I saw that there were different buildings outside the train’s window. They were not very beautiful, with a straight wall that stood diagonally forward and upward about a meter closer to the top, and then again went upward perpendicular to the horizon. They reminded me of video games where society is ruled by a regime that controls everything and everyone, preventing the development of a normal architecture that does not put pressure on the human psyche. Then I noticed that the metro map was different from the real one too. All lines were strongly curved and not straight, as was the case on the real map. I began to try to remember the map and woke up. I did not remember the map, but decided to record my first lucid dream so as not to forget it.

Before telling about my second lucid dream, some things need to be mentioned. In early childhood, I watched “It” on TV. I was a little scared, but the last straw was the photograph of a blinking boy, after which I regretted watching this mini-series. In the preceding release of the new movie “It”, people on social networks began to talk about the clown monster again. Subsequently, I had a relatively bad dream, in which there were similar monsters with large heads and protruding teeth. In the dream, everything was pretty normal, until all the monsters looked at me at the same time in response to one of my thoughts – they were telepaths and knew everything that I was thinking about!

And so, in my second lucid dream, I found myself in our small village house when I gained control over my body. It was sunny outside. I tried to look around, and I was able to see the whole environment, as if it was real life. Then I realized that since this was a dream, it could have anything and anyone. I remembered the monster from the movie “It” and thought that if this monster was in my dream, I could not wake up right away, as happens in nightmares, since it was a lucid dream, and I already did not sleep, so to speak. I tried to wake up, concentrating on my physical body, which I knew was somewhere out there, and I actually could not wake up right away. A few seconds passed before I managed to wake up.

On the one hand, I proved I was right about my concerns, but on the other hand, I regretted a little that I did not dare to run out onto the sunny street in my lucid dream and see what was there. I tried to set in my mind that should I have another lucid dream, I would try not to give in to fears and better explore the surroundings.

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I watched various news channels in English for a long time. Often, politicians and journalists were saying smart things with which I agreed. This went so far that at some point I began to believe that they all really act in the interests of society and the people. I refused to watch channels and people who stated the opposite.

But then, after the beginning of the process of me opening to the real sides of life, I thought, what would I lose if I look at a different opinion? It was a video investigation about one very prominent politician who was once president. Next, I decided to look at other channels to find out the opinion of the other side.

Soon, I found for myself something that clearly showed me that I was mistaken when I began to believe what usually flowed from the news channels I watched. Real actions and motives were completely different. I was naive, but later I was able to learn from my mistakes.

Then I found the news that the investigator of the aforementioned investigation could be working together with all the other corrupt officials – as they say, “if you cannot defeat the crowd – lead it”. I do not know whether this is so, but it confirmed one of my thoughts that it is all not important, since people have power almost always – even in slavery. Therefore, to change the situation with the organization of society, it is only necessary to bring to the minds of people the obvious truth about life. If they understand it, they can simply vote in an open public voting for a new way of organizing society and how products reach each person. I am talking now about the complete freedom of people and the complete absence of any money within the country.

I realized that people always have power when I was watching a documentary about Spartacus. People were able to break out of slavery when they realized that they are strong only when they act with each other, and not against each other.

It dawned on me that everything that happens in any country depends almost entirely on the decisions of each individual living in it.

If people only think how to enrich themselves, then one should not be surprised that there is corruption in the country, right? After all, those corrupt people, like everyone else, want to enrich themselves, and they do exactly what society allows them to do.

I will try to talk in more detail about all this in the chapter “Manifesto” of this book.

The same applies to air pollution from gasoline engines in automobiles. If people wanted clean cars, they could simply not buy gasoline. Companies would have no choice but to create either electric cars or hydrogen powered cars. How to go to work while there is no clean cheap transport? There are bicycles and there is public transport that runs on electricity. Therefore, in fact, people driving such “dirty” cars pollute the environment, not companies. Companies only produce what people want – and it does not matter if companies could have something to do with the appearance of that desire in people.

The same goes for viruses like HIV. All that is required to completely eliminate this virus is honesty and responsibility on the part of each person. Honesty has to do with you honestly telling your new lover that you had unprotected sex with someone less than six months ago. The responsibility lies in that that you do an HIV test six months after you have unprotected sex and use a condom all the time if you decide to have sex with the new person. Do not like the low sensitivity? More reason to spend a little more time searching, but find the one and only person for life. In any case, you can achieve the relaxation of Palantius only with a person of the opposite [from birth] sex, with whom you have mutual love and spiritual affinity.

Then I learned about the tactics of depressing statements from candidates for leadership positions. Its purpose is to encourage a person to vote for a long-time leader so that life does not become even worse than it already is. Given that people perform actions that they consider, according to their knowledge, will benefit them or not harm them, this tactic becomes absolutely logical…

Although I learned about the immortality of the soul through my experience of partial astral projection, I still felt fear at the thought of starting to openly tell people my knowledge about Thiaoouba and life. I thought to help people, but the example of Jesus, Gandhi, and Luther King made me feel uneasy for a very long time.

I did not do anything useful and I sometimes felt like my existence was wasting food and resources in vain.

There was another unexpected insight. This will seem strange to historians, but after reading Thiaoouba Prophecy, I thought that people did not know that you can live without money. At one time I decided to look for an answer to a question that had been in my head for a very long time, and finally it made itself clearly felt – is there a difference between socialism and communism?

So, I found the channel “ВЫХОД ЕСТЬ!” on YouTube, where the guy in an easy-to-follow manner told everything. At first, I was slightly surprised that people in the past not only aspired to a free life without money and politicians, but also that this happened a hundred years ago in the country in which I lived.

And so I wondered – But how then does it happen that I live in capitalism, and freedom is becoming less and less tangible? What is the reason?

I came to the following simple conclusion – money. People in the USSR did not get rid of money and continued to use it to obtain the necessary products. We live in the present moment, and not in the future, and we perform actions that will benefit us in the present tense, and not after 50 years when we will not be alive. Since the money was left, many people began to think what seems obvious on the one hand – “if I had more money, I could buy myself more food or other things”. This seems logical until you begin to understand the monetary system and realize that only a small percentage of people can have a lot of money… at the expense of the rest of the people who will give them their money in the game called “capitalism”.

Another important reason was the political system. In the Manifesto of this book I will talk regarding the right way to choose a country's leader and why this is the only correct method.

In fairness, in 1917+ people did not know anything about Thiaoouba and spirituality. Therefore, they could hardly have come to the system that people used on the continent of Mu. By the way, in Mu people did not use money, but simply took what they needed. No one wanted to deceive others, and the country flourished. Thiaooubians call it the most organized civilization to have ever existed on Earth. Naturally, the people of Mu had their own history and knowledge that allowed them to be highly self-organized people.

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Meanwhile, I corresponded with a girl on a sex dating site, and she wanted to meet. Because I had to go to the dentist, I could not write to her, and I had a simple phone without the Internet. I remember that because of the long absence of my reply, she wrote me a message saying that she did not want to meet with me anymore. After I explained everything to her, she again agreed to meet. She wrote other messages in which she seemed very emotional and capricious.

I wanted to meet in Sokolniki, but in the end we agreed to meet in Tsaritsyno. She did not give me her photograph, but only said what she would be wearing. Even though it was May 27th, it was about ten degrees outside. It was very cold. I rode without a cap as I had given the girl, Maria, my photograph where I was without a headdress – in fact, I was wearing only my underwear in that photograph. And, anyway, I had just recently cut my hair with an old hair clipper, because I decided it was time to start learning to be confident in my body no matter how it looked.

It had been 4 years since I took the subway or went very far from home. This was a new test. I once again had to change to a green subway line in the familiar passage to Teatralnaya. I felt tension in my heart, and anxiety did not let go of me. All the way I tried to concentrate on the sounds around me. Then there I was, driving through the familiar Avtozavodskaya, where almost ten years ago I made one of my most serious mistakes, when I had to do what I was doing on the present day – to get to know people in real life, which gives new knowledge and develops conversation skills.

I want to clarify right away that dating for sex is also a mistake, but it is not such a error as having sex for money, or not searching for your second half at all. Here, you can at least learn real communication with people who are not talking to you because you need to do something with the client during the break for the second time. The third and most correct decision when I was 18 years old would be to go to a park and start approaching girls in order to get to know them, and do this until I could find someone I loved and who would love me the way I was in the present moment.

Finally, I arrived in Tsaritsyno. I did not have to wait long for the girl. Honestly, for some reason I expected to see a long blonde. But instead I was met by a somewhat dark-skinned girl with dark wavy hair. We went to the exit.

On the escalator, I turned around to tell her something, and then a shock appeared on her face, which she could quickly remove, regaining control of herself. I knew what was the reason.

When we walked in the underground passage, Maria lit a cigarette, and I clearly remember how the nasty smell of tobacco fumes killed the whole first impression of her. I could not help it.

But we continued to walk on until we reached the park. I only remember how she said that she did not like to be among the crowd of people. And I told my story with Natasha.

I took a camera with me to take pictures of nature, since, for once, I decided to get outside my area, and the girl decided to take pictures of me. She herself did not like to be photographed. I think she was also not very enthusiastic about her appearance. Then we went to the forest where we sat on a bench by the path. Maria said that she needed to go into the forest for a minute.

Honestly, for some reason I had no doubt that this was an excuse to quietly leave the park. This thought did not really upset me, given that there was a clear discord between us. But as I was thinking if it was time for me to leave, the girl sat next to me on the bench.

She asked me about various things. During the conversation, she said that she just went to the Moscow sex dating site just because, and she contacted me since I honestly wrote in my post about my health problems due to masturbation, which I could not get rid of and therefore tried to replace it with sex.

By the way, in psychology you cannot just remove a bad habit and leave a void. A bad habit can only be replaced by something – preferably by something positive. Having a sex drive, I tried to do what I thought was the best choice at that moment in time with the knowledge that I had.

We went to the exit because it was cold, and if I remember correctly, I had to go to the dentist.

From the course of her words, it was clear that she was not interested in any relationship with me, since she tried to give me some tips on how to get acquainted with girls. She mentioned that some guys rudely told her to eff off when she approached them herself. I was somewhat surprised at this, since while she was not of a completely standard appearance, she still looked normal. She asked me who else wrote me from the sex dating site, and when she heard that it was mostly prostitutes, between the words she asked how much money they were asking. I worried if she wanted to do some stupid thing in her life, but did not say anything.

From the negative during our walking together, it was only that she asked, “if I thought about putting an end to all this”. Understanding how I looked in her eyes with my life story, I decided to briefly talk about my knowledge regarding reincarnation and the wrongness of suicide. She said nothing.

Maria also mentioned that if we were dating, then she would have to entertain me, and not vice versa. I have my own point of view on this statement. Firstly, I really needed to work on myself and on what I talked about and how I said it – but at the same time, a person should not become a clown. Secondly, I believe that in a relationship both partners should look for ways to entertain each other, it should be a mutual action; as they say, it takes two to tango.

I asked her at the metro if she might want to meet again sometime. She replied, “Maybe”. But when I got home, I read her message where she again wrote not to give up and continue to look for a girl, and so on. I was pleased that she wished me well, but it was also clear that she did not want the relationship – otherwise she would not write me to continue searching for the girl. In addition, I still could not get rid of the memory of that cigarette smell which influenced how I felt for her. Something similar happened with Marina, when her dog went to the toilet next to her, and the pungent smell was connected by my brain to Marina herself, although I understood what was the matter. But over time, it all went away.

Maria and I talked for a couple of days, until there was nothing to talk about.

I was also stunned to see my photographs taken by Maria. There was a feeling that I was looking at another person whom I did not like at all. It seemed strange, because in the mirror I looked more or less normal and familiar. In the following years, I needed to take a photo for verification, and once again I could barely recognize myself…

In the summer, I learned about Bitcoin. In fact, I knew about it for a long time, but what I did not know was that it was possible to trade it. I saw how high it went up in price. Some people became millionaires by buying Bitcoins for several hundred dollars many years ago. I watched various videos on how to trade, and found the “Quickfingers Luc” channel, where a man talked about his method of trading that rarely let him down. Seeing how high Bitcoin continued to grow, I decided to open a credit card in order to quickly make “easy” money.