The Book of Love: The emotional epic love story of 2018 by the Irish Times bestseller

Copyright

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First published in Great Britain by HarperCollinsPublishers 2018

Copyright © Fionnuala Kearney 2018

Cover design by Ellie Game © HarperCollinsPublishers Ltd 2018

Fionnuala Kearney asserts the moral right to be identified as the author of this work.

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Source ISBN: 9780007594016

Ebook Edition © October 2018 ISBN: 9780007594023

Version: 2018-11-14

Dedication

For Eamonn and Mary and also Jim and Monica who once loved like this.

Contents

Cover

Title Page

Copyright

Dedication

Part One

Chapter 1. Dominic

Chapter 2. Erin

Chapter 3. Erin

Chapter 4. Dominic

Chapter 5. Erin

Chapter 6. Erin

Chapter Part Two

Chapter 7. Dominic

Chapter 8. Erin

Chapter 9. Erin

Chapter 10. Dominic

Chapter 11. Erin

Chapter 12. Erin

Chapter 13. Dominic

Chapter 14. Erin

Chapter 15. Erin

Chapter 16. Dominic

Chapter 17. Erin

Chapter 18. Erin

Part Three

Chapter 19. Erin

Chapter 20. Dominic

Chapter 21. Dominic

Chapter 22. Erin

Chapter 23. Dominic

Chapter 24. Dominic

Chapter 25. Erin

Chapter 26. Dominic

Chapter 27. Dominic

Chapter 28. Erin

Chapter 29. Dominic

Chapter 30. Dominic

Part Four

Chapter 31. Erin

Chapter 32. Dominic

Chapter 33. Erin

Chapter 34. Dominic

Chapter 35. Erin

Chapter 36. Dominic

Chapter 37. Erin

Chapter 38. Dominic

Chapter 39. Erin

Chapter 40. Dominic

Chapter 41. Erin

Chapter 42. Dominic

Part Five

Chapter 43.

Chapter 44.

Chapter 45.

Chapter 46.

Chapter 47.

Chapter 48.

Chapter 49.

Epilogue

Acknowledgements

A Q&A with Fionnuala Kearney

Book Club Questions for The Book of Love by Fionnuala Kearney

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About the Author

Also by Fionnuala Kearney

About the Publisher

1. Dominic

NOW – 3rd June 2017

From The Book of Love:

‘I love you because you found me.’

I’m wide awake when I shouldn’t be. Completely still, I’m sitting bolt upright on the edge of our bed, ears pricked for any hint of her. There’s nothing but familiar sounds from the old building echoing in the silence. A fly buzzes around the bedroom window. Through the oak floorboards, from below in the kitchen, the fridge motor whines. The pipes groan in the walls like a quick, expectant heartbeat. Even the house misses Erin.

Standing, I stretch tall, my hands just about touching the ceiling. Then I start my sweep of 44 Valentine’s Way, my early walkabout. The children’s bedrooms get a mere glance, nothing new there but another fine layer of dust. I head downstairs, my left hand tracing the original, deco style, curved staircase. At the bottom, just to the right in the study, the desk lamp that sits next to a pile of architectural drawings is switched on. A glance past them, to my paper diary, brings a stabbing memory of Erin, months ago, trying to convince me to digitally diarise everything onto my phone. I resisted, laughed, ignored the jibe about my Jurassic ways and reminded her that it was she who’d dragged me kicking and screaming to the written word in the first place.

Today’s date, with a spidery doodle right in the middle of the page also confirms Lydia’s birthday party tonight. My sister will have staff, borrowed from the cafés she owns, bearing trays of minuscule canapés and warm prosecco. She’ll be floating through our group of friends, and some of hers whom I don’t know, with a painted smile firmly in place, pretending everything’s fine.

The phone ringing in the hall makes me flinch but I don’t move, sensing it will be another hang-up.

‘Hi,’ Erin says from beyond the doorway. ‘We’re not home right now. Leave a message.’ My voice pitches in, ‘If anyone cares, I’m not here either’ and she giggles just before the beep and the final click. I walk to the hall – hear her laugh resonate, almost bounce off the walls, and wonder how days without her seem so achingly exhausting. It’s always been like that. From that first moment I saw her, and her ridiculous dancing, to the last time we spoke, she has lived in my soul. She just moved in, took up residence. No discussion. No permission. No regrets.

Without realising it, I’ve approached the mahogany console table, towards the single drawer. The book seems to beckon to me. I imagine flashing lights warning me of the perils ahead, yet the comfort of it in my hand brings familiar relief; the soft nappa leather, like myself, scarred in places. I find myself fanning our handwritten pages. They smell of Erin, a vague whiff of her peony scent. I raise them to my face and inhale deeply before opening it on her last entry. In the hallway of the home we made together, I pace the tiled black and white floor. The first rays of morning light from the glazed dome in the roof above help me read her words aloud:

12th May 2017

Darling Dom,

Back in August 2004, you took something from here, remember?

Sometimes, usually lying in bed around daybreak, I wonder – no, more than that, I’m quite desperate to know – whether we might have avoided so much heartache if you hadn’t.

I mean, what if you’d left that page where it was meant to be? What if those words had been the very words in our book of love that you really needed to say to me back then? Maybe you were honest, reached out, even asked for help. And maybe if I’d read those words of yours at that time, things might have been different? What if I’d been able to see them by holding the next page up to the light and tracing the faint imprint of your pen?

I tried – it only works in the movies.

I know, I know. You call me ‘The Queen of What Ifs’. But this is just one of the things that haunts me when I wake too early in those dawn-drenched hours.

You tell me not to be silly, not to dwell on the past. You hold me and tell me everything happens as it’s meant to, not exactly ‘for a reason’, but ‘life’, you say all the time, ‘life unfolds just the way it should’.

So, that missing page stayed very much missing. Absent. Gone. I never knew what it said, and you’ve never told me. And life unfolded the way it was meant to and there was heartache – but so much love too. God, there was so much love.

There is still love.

That’s what I cling to in those restless hours that follow night.

I remind myself that love endures.

Erin x

I sit down on the first stair. The closed front door opposite seems to taunt me. ‘What if she walked in here now?’ My whisper is just about audible.

My ‘Queen of What Ifs …’ I’d hold her, touch the soft skin on her face with my fingertips and tell her that she’s right, that it’s love that brings meaning to life.

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