The Story of Waitstill Baxter

“Stop, Patty, stop, dear! You shall have your bit of pasture, at least. I’ll do some of your indoor tasks for you, and you shall put on your sunbonnet and go out and dig the dandelion greens for dinner. Take the broken knife and a milkpan and don’t bring in so much earth with them as you did last time. Dry your eyes and look at the green things growing. Remember how young you are and how many years are ahead of you! Go along, dear!”

Waitstill went about her work with rather a heavy heart. Was life going to be more rather than less difficult, now that Patty was growing up? Would she he able to do her duty both by father and sister and keep peace in the household, as she had vowed, in her secret heart, always to do? She paused every now and then to look out of the window and wave an encouraging hand to Patty. The girl’s bonnet was off, and her uncovered head blazed like red gold in the sunlight. The short young grass was dotted with dandelion blooms, some of them already grown to huge disks of yellow, and Patty moved hither and thither, selecting the younger weeds, deftly putting the broken knife under their roots and popping them into the tin pan. Presently, for Deacon Baxter had finished the wagon and gone down the hill to relieve Cephas Cole at the counter, Patty’s shrill young whistle floated into the kitchen, but with a mischievous glance at the open window she broke off suddenly and began to sing the words of the hymn with rather more emphasis and gusto than strict piety warranted.

     “There’ll be SOMEthing in heav-en for chil-dren to do,      None are idle in that bless-ed land:      There’ll be WORK for the heart. There’ll be WORK for the mind,      And emPLOYment for EACH little hand.        “There’ll be SOME-thing to do,         There’ll be SOME-thing to do,      There’ll be SOME-thing for CHIL-dren to do!      On that bright blessed shore where there’s joy evermore,      There’ll be SOME-thing for CHIL-DREN to do.”

Patty’s young existence being full to the brim of labor, this view of heaven never in the least appealed to her and she rendered the hymn with little sympathy. The main part of the verse was strongly accented by jabs at the unoffending dandelion roots, but when the chorus came she brought out the emphatic syllables by a beat of the broken knife on the milkpan.

This rendition of a Sabbath-School classic did not meet Waitstill’s ideas of perfect propriety, but she smiled and let it pass, planning some sort of recreation for a stolen half-hour of the afternoon. It would have to be a walk through the pasture into the woods to see what had grown since they went there a fortnight ago. Patty loved people better than Nature, but failing the one she could put up with the other, for she had a sense of beauty and a pagan love of color. There would be pale-hued innocence and blue and white violets in the moist places, thought Waitstill, and they would have them in a china cup on the supper-table. No, that would never do, for last time father had knocked them over when he was reaching for the bread, and in a silent protest against such foolishness got up from the table and emptied theirs into the kitchen sink.

“There’s a place for everything,” he said when he came back, “and the place for flowers is outdoors.”

Then in the pine woods there would be, she was sure, Star of Bethlehem, Solomon’s Seal, the white spray of groundnuts and bunchberries. Perhaps they could make a bouquet and Patty would take it across the fields to Mrs. Boynton’s door. She need not go in, and thus they would not be disobeying their father’s command not to visit that “crazy Boynton woman.”

Here Patty came in with a pan full of greens and the sisters sat down in the sunny window to get them ready for the pot.

“I’m calmer,” the little rebel allowed. “That’s generally the way it turns out with me. I get into a rage, but I can generally sing it off!”

“You certainly must have got rid of a good deal of temper this morning, by the way your voice sounded.”

“Nobody can hear us in this out-of-the-way place. It’s easy enough to see that the women weren’t asked to say anything when the men settled where the houses should be built! The men weren’t content to stick them on the top of a high hill, or half a mile from the stores, but put them back to the main road, taking due care to cut the sink-window where their wives couldn’t see anything even when they were washing dishes.”

“I don’t know that I ever thought about it in that way”; and Waitstill looked out of the window in a brown study while her hands worked with the dandelion greens. “I’ve noticed it, but I never supposed the men did it intentionally.”

“No, you wouldn’t,” said Patty with the pessimism of a woman of ninety, as she stole an admiring glance at her sister. Patty’s own face, irregular, piquant, tantalizing, had its peculiar charm, and her brilliant skin and hair so dazzled the masculine beholder that he took note of no small defects; but Waitstill was beautiful; beautiful even in her working dress of purple calico. Her single braid of hair, the Foxwell hair, that in her was bronze and in Patty pale auburn, was wound once around her fine head and made to stand a little as it went across the front. It was a simple, easy, unconscious fashion of her own, quite different from anything done by other women in her time and place, and it just suited her dignity and serenity. It looked like a coronet, but it was the way she carried her head that gave you the fancy, there was such spirit and pride in the poise of it on the long graceful neck. Her eyes were as clear as mountain pools shaded by rushes, and the strength of the face was softened by the sweetness of the mouth.

Patty never let the conversation die out for many seconds at a time and now she began again. “My sudden rages don’t match my name very well, but, of course, mother didn’t know how I was going to turn out when she called me Patience, for I was nothing but a squirming little bald, red baby; but my name really is too ridiculous when you think about it.”

Waitstill laughed as she said: “It didn’t take you long to change it! Perhaps Patience was a hard word for a baby to say, but the moment you could talk you said, ‘Patty wants this’ and ‘Patty wants that.”’

“Did Patty ever get it? She never has since, that’s certain! And look at your name: it’s ‘Waitstill,’ yet you never stop a moment. When you’re not in the shed or barn, or chicken-house, or kitchen or attic, or garden-patch, you are working in the Sunday School or the choir.”

It seemed as if Waitstill did not intend to answer this arraignment of her activities. She rose and crossed the room to put the pan of greens in the sink, preparing to wash them.

Taking the long-handled dipper from the nail, she paused a moment before plunging it into the water pail; paused, and leaning her elbow on a corner of the shelf over the sink, looked steadfastly out into the orchard.

Patty watched her curiously and was just going to offer a penny for her thoughts when Waitstill suddenly broke the brief silence by saying: “Yes, I am always busy; it’s better so, but all the same, Patty, I’m waiting,—inside! I don’t know for what, but I always feel that I am waiting!”

VI. A KISS

“SHALL we have our walk in the woods on the Edgewood side of the river, just for a change, Patty?” suggested her sister. “The water is so high this year that the river will be splendid. We can gather our flowers in the hill pasture and then you’ll be quite near Mrs. Boynton’s and can carry the nosegay there while I come home ahead of you and get supper. I’ll take to-day’s eggs to father’s store on the way and ask him if he minds our having a little walk. I’ve an errand at Aunt Abby’s that would take me down to the bridge anyway.”

“Very well,” said Patty, somewhat apathetically. “I always like a walk with you, but I don’t care what becomes of me this afternoon if I can’t go to Ellen’s party.”

The excursion took place according to Waitstill’s plan, and at four o’clock she sped back to her night work and preparations for supper, leaving Patty with a great bunch of early wildflowers for Ivory’s mother. Patty had left them at the Boyntons’ door with Rodman, who was picking up chips and volunteered to take the nosegay into the house at once.

“Won’t you step inside?” the boy asked shyly, wishing to be polite, but conscious that visitors, from the village very seldom crossed the threshold.

“I’d like to, but I can’t this afternoon, thank you. I must run all the way down the hill now, or I shan’t be in time to supper.”

“Do you eat meals together over to your house?” asked the boy.

“We’re all three at the table if that means together.”

“We never are. Ivory goes off early and takes lunch in a pail. So do I when I go to school. Aunt Boynton never sits down to eat; she just stands at the window and takes a bite of something now ‘and then. You haven’t got any mother, have you?”

“No, Rodman.”

“Neither have I, nor any father, nor any relations but Aunt Boynton and Ivory. Ivory is very good to me, and when he’s at home I’m never lonesome.”

“I wish you could come over and eat with sister and me,” said Patty gently. “Perhaps sometime, when my father is away buying goods and we are left alone, you could join us in the woods, and we would have a picnic? We would bring enough for you; all sorts of good things; hard-boiled eggs, doughnuts, apple-turnovers, and bread spread with jelly.”

“I’d like it fine!” exclaimed Rodman, his big dark eyes sparkling with anticipation. “I don’t have many boys to play with, and I never went to a picnic Aunt Boynton watches for uncle ‘most all the time; she doesn’t know he has been away for years and years. When she doesn’t watch, she prays. Sometimes she wants me to pray with her, but praying don’t come easy to me.”

“Neither does it to me,” said Patty.

“I’m good at marbles and checkers and back-gammon and jack-straws, though.”

“So am I,” said Patty, laughing, “so we should be good friends. I’ll try to get a chance to see you soon again, but perhaps I can’t; I’m a good deal tied at home.”

“Your father doesn’t like you to go anywheres, I guess,” interposed Rodman. “I’ve heard Ivory tell Aunt Boynton things, but I wouldn’t repeat them. Ivory’s trained me years and years not to tell anything, so I don’t.”

“That’s a good boy!” approved Patty. Then as she regarded him more closely, she continued, “I’m sorry you’re lonesome, Rodman, I’d like to see you look brighter.”

“You think I’ve been crying,” the boy said shrewdly. “So I have, but not because I’ve been punished. The reason my eyes are so swollen up is because I killed our old toad by mistake this morning. I was trying to see if I could swing the scythe so’s to help Ivory in haying-time. I’ve only ‘raked after’ and I want to begin on mowing soon’s I can. Then somehow or other the old toad came out from under the steps; I didn’t see him, and the scythe hit him square. I cried for an hour, that’s what I did, and I don’t care who knows it except I wouldn’t like the boys at school to hector me. I’ve buried the toad out behind the barn, and I hope Ivory’ll let me keep the news from Aunt Boynton. She cries enough now without my telling her there’s been a death in the family. She set great store by the old toad, and so did all of us.”

“It’s too bad; I’m sorry, but after all you couldn’t help it.”

“No, but we should always look round every-wheres when we’re cutting; that’s what Ivory says. He says folks shouldn’t use edged tools till they’re old enough not to fool with ‘em.”

And Rodman looked so wise and old-fashioned for his years that Patty did not know whether to kiss him or cry over him, as she said: “Ivory’s always right, and now good-bye; I must go this very minute. Don’t forget the picnic.”

“I won’t!” cried the boy, gazing after her, wholly entranced with her bright beauty and her kindness. “Say, I’ll bring something, too,—white-oak acorns, if you like ‘em; I’ve got a big bagful up attic!”

Patty sped down the long lane, crept under the bars, and flew like a lapwing over the high-road.

“If father was only like any one else, things might be so different!” she sighed, her thoughts running along with her feet. “Nobody to make a home for that poor lonesome little boy and that poor lonesome big Ivory.... I am sure that he is in love with Waitstill. He doesn’t know it; she doesn’t know it; nobody does but me, but I’m clever at guessing. I was the only one that surmised Jed Morrill was going to marry again.... I should almost like Ivory for myself, he is so tall and handsome, but of course he can never marry anybody; he is too poor and has his mother to look after. I wouldn’t want to take him from Waity, though, and then perhaps I couldn’t get him, anyway.... If I couldn’t, he’d be the only one! I’ve never tried yet, but I feel in my bones, somehow, that I could have any boy in Edgewood or Riverboro, by just crooking my forefinger and beckoning to him.. .. I wish—I wish—they were different! They don’t make me want to beckon to them! My forefinger just stays straight and doesn’t feel like crooking!… There’s Cephas Cole, but he’s as stupid as an owl. I don’t want a husband that keeps his mouth wide open whenever I’m talking, no matter whether it’s sense or nonsense. There’s Phil Perry, but he likes Ellen, and besides he’s too serious for me; and there’s Mark Wilson; he’s the best dressed, and the only one that’s been to college. He looks at me all the time in meeting, and asked me if I wouldn’t take a walk some Sunday afternoon. I know he planned Ellen’s party hoping I’d be there!—Goodness gracious, I do believe that is his horse coming behind me! There’s no other in the village that goes at such a gait!”

It was, indeed, Mark Wilson, who always drove, according to Aunt Abby Cole, “as if he was goin’ for a doctor.” He caught up with Patty almost in the twinkling of an eye, but she was ready for him. She had taken off her sunbonnet just to twirl it by the string, she was so warm with walking, and in a jiffy she had lifted the clustering curls from her ears, tucked them back with a single expert movement, and disclosed two coral pendants just the color of her ear-tips and her glowing cheeks.

“Hello, Patty!” the young man called, in brusque country fashion, as he reined up beside her. “What are you doing over here? Why aren’t you on your way to the party? I’ve been over to Limington and am breaking my neck to get home in time myself.”

“I am not going; there are no parties for me!” said Patty plaintively. “Not going! Oh! I say, what’s the matter? It won’t be a bit of fun without you! Ellen and I made it up expressly for you, thinking your father couldn’t object to a candy-pull!”

“I can’t help it; I did the best I could. Wait-still always asks father for me, but I wouldn’t take any chances to-day, and I spoke to him myself; indeed I almost coaxed him!”

“He’s a regular old skinflint!” cried Mark, getting out of the wagon and walking beside her.

“You mustn’t call him names,” Patty interposed with some dignity. “I call him a good many myself, but I’m his daughter.”

“You don’t look it,” said Mark admiringly. “Come and have a little ride, Won’t you?”

“Oh, I couldn’t possibly, thank you. Some one would be sure to see us, and father’s so strict.”

“There isn’t a building for half a mile! Just jump in and have a spin till we come to the first house; then I’ll let you out and you can walk the rest of the way home. Come, do, and make up to me a little for my disappointment. I’ll skip the candy-pull if you say the word.”

It was an incredibly brief drive, at Mark’s rate of speed; and as exciting and blissful as it was brief and dangerous, Patty thought. Did she imagine it, or did Mark help her into the wagon differently from—old Dr. Perry, for instance?

The fresh breeze lifted the gold thread of her curls and gave her cheeks a brighter color, while her breath came fast through her parted lips and her eyes sparkled at the unexpected, unaccustomed pleasure. She felt so grown up, so conscious of a new power as she sat enthroned on the little wagon seat (Mark Wilson always liked his buggies “courtin’ size” so the neighbors said), that she was almost courageous enough to agree to make a royal progress through the village; almost, but not quite.

“Come on, let’s shake the old tabbies up and start ‘em talking, shall we?” Mark suggested. “I’ll give you the reins and let Nero have a flick of the whip.”

“No, I’d rather not drive,” she said. “I’d be afraid of this horse, and, anyway, I must get out this very minute; yes, I really must. If you hold Nero I can just slip down between the wheels; you needn’t help me.”

Mark alighted notwithstanding her objections, saying gallantly, “I don’t miss this pleasure, not by a jugful! Come along! Jump!”

Patty stretched out her hands to be helped, but Mark forestalled her by putting his arms around her and lifting her down. A second of time only was involved, but in that second he held; her close and kissed her warm cheek, her cheek that had never felt the touch of any lips but those of Waitstill. She pulled her sunbonnet over her flaming face, while Mark, with a gay smile of farewell, sprang into the wagon and gave his horse a free rein.

Patty never looked up from the road, but walked faster and faster, her heart beating at breakneck speed. It was a changed world that spun past her; fright, triumph, shame, delight, a gratified vanity swam over her in turn.

A few minutes later she heard once more the rumble of wheels on the road. It was Cephas Cole driving towards her over the brow of Saco Hill. “He’ll have seen Mark,” she thought, “but he can’t know I’ve talked and driven with him. Ugh! how stupid and common he looks!” “I heard your father blowin’ the supper-horn jest as I come over the bridge,” remarked Cephas, drawing up in the road. “He stood in the door-yard blowin’ like Bedlam. I guess you ‘re late to supper.”

“I’ll be home in a few minutes,” said Patty, “I got delayed and am a little behindhand.”

“I’ll turn right round if you’ll git in and lemme take you back-along a piece; it’ll save you a good five minutes,” begged Cephas, abjectly.

“All right; much obliged; but it’s against the rules and you must drop me at the foot of our hill and let me walk up.”

“Certain; I know the Deacon ‘n’ I ain’t huntin’ for trouble any more’n you be; though I ‘d take it quick enough if you jest give me leave! I ain’t no coward an’ I could tackle the Deacon to-morrow if so be I had anything to ask him.”

This seemed to Patty a line of conversation distinctly to be discouraged under all the circumstances, and she tried to keep Cephas on the subject of his daily tasks and his mother’s rheumatism until she could escape from his over-appreciative society.

“How do you like my last job?” he inquired as they passed his father’s house. “Some think I’ve got the ell a little mite too yaller. Folks that ain’t never handled a brush allers think they can mix paint better ‘n them that knows their trade.”

“If your object was to have everybody see the ell a mile away, you’ve succeeded,” said Patty cruelly. She never flung the poor boy a civil word for fear of getting something warmer than civility in return.

“It’ll tone down,” Cephas responded, rather crestfallen. “I wanted a good bright lastin’ shade. ‘T won’t look so yaller when father lets me paint the house to match, but that won’t be till next year. He makes fun of the yaller color same as you; says a home’s something you want to forget when you’re away from it. Mother says the two rooms of the ell are big enough for somebody to set up housekeepin’ in. What do you think?”

“I never think,” returned Patty with a tantalizing laugh. “Good-night, Cephas; thank you for giving me a lift!”

VII. “WHAT DREAMS MAY COME”

SUPPER was over and the work done at last; the dishes washed, the beans put in soak, the hens shut up for the night, the milk strained and carried down cellar. Patty went up to her little room with the one window and the slanting walls and Waitstill followed and said good-night. Her father put out the lights, locked the doors, and came up the creaking stairs. There was never any talk between the sisters before going to bed, save on nights when their father was late at the store, usually on Saturdays only, for the good talkers of the village, as well as the gossips and loafers, preferred any other place to swap stories than the bleak atmosphere provided by old Foxy at his place of business.

Patty could think in the dark; her healthy young body lying not uncomfortably on the bed of corn husks, and the patchwork comforter drawn up under her chin. She could think, but for the first time she could not tell her thoughts to Waitstill. She had a secret; a dazzling secret, just like Ellen Wilson and some of the other girls who were several years older. Her afternoon’s experience loomed as large in her innocent mind as if it had been an elopement.

“I hope I’m not engaged to be married to him, EVEN IF HE DID—” The sentence was too tremendous to be finished, even in thought. “I don’t think I can be; men must surely say something, and not take it for granted you are in love with them and want to marry them. It is what they say when they ask that I should like much better than being married, when I’m only just past seventeen. I wish Mark was a little different; I don’t like his careless ways! He admires me, I can tell one; that by the way he looks, but he admires himself just as much, and expects me to do the same; still, I suppose none of them are perfect, and girls have to forgive lots of little things when they are engaged. Mother must have forgiven a good many things when she took father. Anyway, Mark is going away for a month on business, so I shan’t have to make up my mind just yet!” Here sleep descended upon the slightly puzzled, but on the whole delightfully complacent, little creature, bringing her most alluring and untrustworthy dreams.

The dear innocent had, indeed, no need of haste! Young Mr. Marquis de Lafayette Wilson, Mark for short, was not in the least a gay deceiver or ruthless breaker of hearts, and, so far as known, no scalps of village beauties were hung to his belt. He was a likable, light-weight young chap, as indolent and pleasure-loving as the strict customs of the community would permit; and a kiss, in his mind, most certainly never would lead to the altar, else he had already been many times a bridegroom. Miss Patience Baxter’s maiden meditations and uncertainties and perplexities, therefore, were decidedly premature. She was a natural-born, unconsciously artistic, highly expert, and finished coquette. She was all this at seventeen, and Mark at twenty-four was by no means a match for her in this field of effort, yet!—but sometimes, in getting her victim into the net, the coquette loses her balance and falls in herself. There wasn’t a bit of harm in Marquis de Lafayette, but he was extremely agile in keeping out of nets!

Waitstill was restless, too, that night, although she could not have told the reason. She opened her window at the back of the house and leaned out. The evening was mild with a soft wind blowing. She could hear the full brook dashing through the edge of the wood-lot, and even the “ker-chug” of an occasional bull-frog. There were great misty stars in the sky, but no moon.

There was no light in Aunt Abby Cole’s kitchen, but a faint glimmer shone through the windows of Uncle Bart’s joiner’s shop, showing that the old man was either having an hour of peaceful contemplation with no companion but his pipe, or that there might be a little group of privileged visitors, headed by Jed Morrill, busily discussing the affairs of the nation.

Waitstill felt troubled and anxious to-night; bruised by the little daily torments that lessened her courage but never wholly destroyed it. Any one who believed implicitly in heredity might have been puzzled, perhaps, to account for her. He might fantastically picture her as making herself out of her ancestors, using a free hand, picking and choosing what she liked best, with due care for the effect of combinations; selecting here and there and modifying, if advisable, a trait of Grandpa or Grandma Foxwell, of Great-Uncle or Great-Aunt Baxter; borrowing qualities lavishly from her own gently born and gently bred mother, and carefully avoiding her respected father’s Stock, except, perhaps, to take a dash of his pluck and an ounce of his persistence. Jed Morrill remarked of Deacon Baxter once: “When Old Foxy wants anything he’ll wait till hell freezes over afore he’ll give up.” Waitstill had her father’s firm chin, but there the likeness ended. The proud curve of her nostrils, the clear well-opened eye with its deep fringe of lashes, the earnest mouth, all these came from the mother who was little more than a dim memory.