I Hear Life

Small actions are like everyday fuel

You don’t have to be a hero every day. But you can do at least one thing that brings you closer to your true self:

– Read one page.

– Walk without headphones and hear the noise of the city.

– Write one line.

– Admit something important to yourself.

It’s not «success.» It’s a habit of being yourself. And internal motivation is fueled by these small steps.

Fatigue is not the enemy

There are days when you don’t want to do anything. And that doesn’t mean you’ve lost motivation. It means your engine is overheated.

Sometimes you don’t need to push yourself, you just need to stop. Respecting your tiredness is also part of the inner path.

You are not a machine. Even a silent engine requires maintenance. And rest is not a «weakness», but a concern for fuel.

You don’t have to be noticeable

In our world, everything is measured in numbers: likes, views, speeds, results. But internal motivation does not always make you bright. It makes you stable.

You can be invisible – and at the same time deeply honest with yourself. And it is these people who move the furthest. Because they go not for the finish line, but because they cannot stop.

Remember: live like no one is watching

Imagine that no one will ever know about your victories. That there will be no awards, diplomas, posts of recognition. There will be only you – and the work that you do.

If you continue anyway, then this is your power. And this is the most reliable source of energy. Not loud. But eternal.

Chapter 6. When you are not in the flow, you are in yourself

Loud World – What It Really Feels Like

Imagine you walk into a cafe. People are laughing, music is playing, the coffee machine is hissing, someone is typing. For most people, it’s just background noise. For me, it’s screaming. When you wear hearing aids, sound doesn’t return to you «like before.» It’s amplified. Sometimes evenly, but more often than not, it’s not. Imagine that everything around you is happening in a mode of maximum attention. And each source of sound requires a response from you.

You can’t just «filter out» the background. Everything is in focus. Everything is nearby. And you don’t always have time to prioritize: what is important and what is just noise.

I often got tired not of the dialogue, but of the environment. Not of the people, but of their steps, phones, the scraping of chairs. And here’s what I realized: the problem is not the noise. The problem is how we relate to it.

Silence is not always comfort

Paradox: when I take off my hearing aids, the world becomes quieter. Very quiet. But not easier. Because the reference point disappears along with the sounds. You don’t hear what’s going on behind you. You don’t hear what’s being said. Even your own steps sound like they’re coming from underwater.

Silence does not become peace – it becomes isolation.

So I realized: I don’t need a quiet world, I need a clear one. Predictable. One where I can choose for myself: to listen or not. To participate – or to step aside. But not because «I don’t hear», but because I chose.

Navigating in chaos

When everything around you is screaming, you learn to listen differently. Not with sounds, but with context. Facial expressions. Gestures. Movements. You see how a person breathes before speaking. How his shoulders rise slightly. How he turns his head – and it’s already clear: he’s about to ask a question.