New Beginnings

Satisfied with the answer, Olly careered after Fred with a screech of brakes and a roar of engine noise.

‘Caro’s in Brussels,’ Richard explained to Christie. ‘She’s a translator and is there more often than not these days.’

‘Single-parenting’s difficult, isn’t it?’ Christie sympathised.

‘Actually, I don’t find it that bad,’ he contradicted her, with an apologetic smile. ‘My work’s pretty flexible.’

‘I don’t think I really know what you do.’

‘I put overgrown schoolboys masquerading as company execs through team-building experiences. It’s actually great fun and they really get something out of it. So do the women who, I’m happy to report, are very resilient. The farmland and woods we use are a paradise for kids. Fred must come over. In fact, Olly and I are camping out on Saturday night. Do you think Fred’d fancy that?’

‘He’d love it. If you’re sure.’

‘Completely. Two boys are much easier than one. It’ll be fun.’

Christie smiled. She’d welcome the opportunity for a bit of bonding time alone with Libby. Her daughter was busy embarking on the terrible teens with gusto and Christie wanted to narrow what sometimes seemed an ever-widening gap between them. Meanwhile, Fred would benefit from being with a substitute father-figure for once. The close adults in his life were all women, with the exception of Maureen’s Ted – and he didn’t really count. ‘Yes, that would be great.’

‘That’s settled, then. Now tell me about your job.’ He sat back again to concentrate on what she had to say.

Basking in his interest, Christie began to describe her lunch. The high that had accompanied her home from the Ivy returned and Richard was soon laughing with her, clearly astonished when she described Julia’s presence. ‘God! She sounds a bit full-on.’

‘She probably goes there all the time.’ But Christie felt less breezy than she sounded. ‘But her being so near did make me feel a bit uncomfortable.’

‘Isn’t she the one who was all over the papers at the end of last year? I dimly remember reading about her.’

‘That’s her. One of her clients was staying with her and she found his body. He was on his own in her pool and must have slipped. A terrible thing.’

‘Apart from that, how much do you know about her?’ He seemed concerned.

‘No more than necessary, and she’s certainly not what I’m used to. But then again, everything I’m doing at the moment is not what I’m used to. I’m glad to have someone experienced on my side.’

‘This might be teaching my grandmother to suck eggs, but wouldn’t it be an idea to find out a little bit more?’

She was exasperated. ‘If you met her, you’d see immediately what a shrewd woman she is. Whatever the press may have said about her doesn’t make her a bad agent.’

‘Well, do you trust her?’ he asked, as if making a point.

‘Oh, God, yes.’ She thought about it, then said firmly, ‘I would never have gone with her if I’d had any doubts.’

‘I’m sorry. I shouldn’t be saying any of this. Of course you wouldn’t.’

She could see he thought he’d overstepped the mark. ‘Oh, I don’t blame you. Really. I know how crazy it sounds. She involves herself far more than I was expecting, but she’s done some great things for me already so I can’t complain. She’ll probably lose interest eventually.’

But Julia’s unexpected appearance in the restaurant had set one or two alarm bells ringing in her mind although she couldn’t put her finger on why. Had it been coincidence? Or did Julia not trust her to do the right thing on her own? Christie was used to making her own decisions and didn’t want to be manipulated or controlled by anyone.

‘There you go again. What happened to positivity? She’s lucky to have you.’ Richard was smiling as he stood up. ‘I’d better take that urchin home. But you must let me know what happens.’

‘I will.’ Christie took him back to the kitchen where Libby was scraping the food from her plate into the bin. Mel looked at Christie and shrugged. Not my fault.

Libby glanced up before putting her plate in the dishwasher. Then she planted a quick kiss on her mother’s cheek. ‘Got to phone Jasmine. I’ll be down later.’ Christie recognised the teen-speak for ‘I’ll be down in a couple of hours when I’ve rinsed the phone bill’ but she didn’t rise to it.

When Richard and Olly had left, and Fred had gone to watch a Simpsons DVD, Mel and Christie sat together at the kitchen table.

‘You might have warned me,’ Mel complained. ‘I’d have dressed up if I’d known he was going to be here.’

‘Who? Richard?’

‘Yes!’ Mel’s voice was loud with disbelief. ‘You know – the tall dark handsome apparently single bloke who has just left the house. Don’t play the little innocent.’

Christie laughed. ‘Oh, stop. It’s only Richard. A really nice dad, that’s all.’ She paused, then said, ‘And, anyway, I’m out of the habit of thinking like that about men. There isn’t a switch I can just turn on when I want to.’

‘Well, try harder. Tune your radar in. Or I’ll have to come over more often and make a play for him myself.’ Mel rubbed at a splodge of tomato ketchup on her T-shirt. ‘I’m sorry about supper. Libby hated it.’ She looked downcast, upset to think she might be falling out of favour with her adored niece. ‘I’m worried she’ll be hungry.’

‘Don’t. She’ll be fine. You’re fantastic to come and cover for me and that’s all that matters. They like it so much better than when Mum comes.’

‘Are you surprised? Elisabeth!’ Mel mimicked Maureen exactly, brightening as she did so. ‘Eat everything on your plate or you’ll have it for lunch tomorrow and I’ll keep on giving it to you for every meal until it’s finished. For the rest of your life, if necessary.’

They both burst out laughing at their mother’s renowned insistence on the proper way of doing things – it was often the butt of their jokes. Then, changing the subject, Christie told the story of her lunch for the second time.

‘Wow!’ said Mel, when she’d finished. ‘That Jack sounds a complete prick. You must be starving. But I bet you get the job. How will you manage it with the kids, though?’

This was the one question Christie had been deliberately ignoring. Her children had always come first but this job would be an opportunity she couldn’t pass up. Things would have to change. ‘I am worried about that. No self-respecting nanny would want to look after a couple of kids for only a few hours a day and, anyway, that would be incredibly expensive. However nice the salary, I’m still paying off that enormous bloody bank loan.’ She hesitated. ‘You haven’t told Mum, have you?’

‘Of course not.’ Mel was indignant.

‘Thanks. Nick would kill me if he knew I’d even told you. It’s sometimes so difficult having to cope with all the stuff that he dealt with. I so wish he was here to help. He’d know what was best for the kids.’

‘Why don’t you ask Mum?’

‘To help out? Do you think she would? I could afford to pay her something. Or do you think she’d feel patronised?’

‘Patronage or pin money – either way, you’re in trouble. But . . .’

‘That’s Mum!’ they shouted together, and laughed.

‘Well, I’ll be picked up by a driver every day . . .’ she ignored her sister’s whoop of glee ‘. . . about midday, so I could mostly get them up and to school. I’d be in the office at lunchtime and driven home about eight thirty so I’d only need her to be around for a few hours after school. The show goes off-air for most of the Christmas holidays and then my stint’s almost over. I’ll ring her, tell her about today and then drop a hint or two.’

‘Well, you know you can count on me, if I’m not working.’ Mel stretched across the table and grasped Christie’s hand in a sudden burst of sisterliness.

‘Thanks. I know.’ Christie squeezed back, not wanting to admit how nervous she was feeling. If she got the job, what would she be letting herself in for? At the same time, she had to acknowledge that her overriding feeling was excitement, as if she was emerging from the shadows into a brave new world where she could be herself again, doing her very best for her family, and where absolutely anything could happen. What a long way she had come since Nick and she had first fallen in love. When he’d made his un expected proposal of marriage, neither of them could have known what a difficult journey would lie ahead. Those heady days could never be repeated but at least they were safe in her memory for ever.

The drive to the Highlands took two days. They stopped off in the Lakes for a romantic night in Keswick before embarking on the final leg to Nick’s parents’ house. Ma and Pa. Ma was slim and upright, wearing a good tweed skirt, thick stockings and sensible shoes. She had a voice that was used to the draughts and space of old country houses and she could use her cut-glass tones to great effect when shouting for Pa in the garden. The two Labradors, Blackie and Scottie, adored her and never left her side. Pa was a gentler soul. He liked the garden and his greenhouse, and Antiques Roadshow.

The house was imposing from a distance: turreted and hewn from granite. But, close up, it was quietly falling into disrepair. Pa had bought it when he retired from his law firm in order to give his wife, who was rather further up the social scale than he was, the reward he felt she needed for marrying him in the first place. Nick’s parents had done very well over the years with her inheritance and his hard graft, which had taken him from legal assistant to senior partner. He’d invested well but, in their final days, clearly didn’t feel like spending anything on repair bills or heating. The house was as cold as the granite it was built from.

As they parked outside the front of the house, Ma and Pa, Blackie and Scottie came out to meet them.

‘Nick, my boy. Good to see you, old chap.’ Pa pumped Nick’s arm. ‘And this must be Christie. Welcome, welcome. Good of you to come.’ He shook her hand too. ‘This is my wife, Elisabeth.’

Christie’s hand was taken in a firm but cold handshake. ‘I’m so excited to be here,’ she enthused. ‘What a glorious spot.’ Spot? What was she saying? Calling it a spot was like calling Balmoral a mobile home. She stood and took in the three-hundred-and-sixty-degree view. Only two houses, way in the distance, and the narrow potholed road on which they’d travelled. The rest she described later to Mel as ‘Scenery! There’s just loads and loads of scenery. And sheep. And that’s it.’

‘Thank you,’ Elisabeth said, without apparently moving any part of her face. ‘Do come in. I hope you’ll be warm enough.’

‘I’m sure I’ll be fine.’ Christie followed her, dying to see what was offered inside. But she wasn’t fine. She was frozen. The fire lit in the library where they had tea and Dundee cake was barely glowing. She could almost see her breath on the air. No wonder Nick had packed for the Arctic. Later he showed her to her bedroom. It had a pretty view of the scenery, heather-sprigged wallpaper and a very high but single bed.

‘Are we not allowed to sleep together?’ she asked, taken aback.

‘Ma doesn’t approve. But it’s much more fun this way. I can come and warm you up a bit later, if you like! Shall I run you a bath? Your lips are going blue.’

She punched his arm.

The bathroom was a perfect example of early-Victorian plumbing. The enormous, stained bath stood on lion feet. Nick turned on the large brass taps only for there to be a time delay before icy water eventually came through. Ten minutes later, only a couple of inches covered the bottom but at least the water had got hotter and the steam seemed rather exotic so Christie did the best she could to enjoy it while Nick sat on the closed loo lid holding a big but balding bath towel for her. While she went to get dressed, Nick jumped into her water. As she put on as many layers as she’d brought with her, she wondered if anyone would notice that she was wearing two pairs of tights.

Supper was also in the library, where a small card table had been set up and laid by the fire. Elisabeth tottered in and out with bowls of cabbage, carrots and mash and finally a leg of lamb. Nick carved while Pa poured very generous glasses of Scotch for them all. The evening was memorable, and as Christie got to know Ma and Pa, she found them funny and kind. Elisabeth took a little time to weigh her up, but after a couple of hours she picked up her glass and made a toast: ‘To Christie and Nicholas. We’re happy to have you here with us.’

‘What was that about?’ whispered Christie, as Nick walked her up the stairs to her bedroom.

‘I think it’s her way of saying she likes you. Which is good because I like you too.’ They stopped outside her bedroom door. ‘And so does Pa. I can tell.’ To her astonishment, he dropped on to one knee. ‘Darling Christie, I like you so much I would like to marry you. Would that be all right? I love you.’

‘Oh, my God. Yes! Yes, please!’ Christie was giddy with happiness.

He stood up and just about managed to pick her up and carry her over the threshold of her room. And, funnily enough, she didn’t feel the cold once that night.

Chapter 7

The summer sun was slanting through the branches of the two magnificent chestnut trees in the south-west corner of the garden. Shadows danced on the grass where Christie had arranged the two deckchairs. She put down the mugs of tea, making sure they were steady before she let go. Between the two women, a plate of chocolate-chip cookies lay untouched. Maureen was watching her weight, as always, and had refused them with a small sniff. Christie took two, just for the hell of it, and balanced one on the arm of the chair as she took a bite out of the other. As the sweetness filled her mouth, she relaxed, but not completely. She had something to achieve first.

‘I wouldn’t ask you unless I had to.’ As Maureen bristled, Christie realised how her words might have been interpreted. ‘What I mean is,’ she added hastily, ‘no one could do the job as well as you and I wouldn’t trust the children with anyone else, Mum. So, would you consider looking after them for me while I’m at work?’

Her ruffled feathers smoothed, Maureen brightened a little. ‘I’d like to help but I need to check my diary.’ Her involvement in local affairs was second to none. She organised local fêtes, coffee mornings, charity events, and was a stalwart of any adult-education opportunities on offer. And besides all that, there was Ted, her loyal companion. Her time was a precious commodity.

Christie relaxed a little bit more. This was to be expected. Maureen relished playing hard to get. That way, when she eventually agreed to a request, the gratitude she received was always the greater. After years of being irritated by the habit, Christie now accepted it as part of her mother’s character. Her grandmother had died years ago, but Christie well remembered the straight back, the pinched face and the distressing lack of affection she showed to any of her family. Maureen had obviously paid the price for her upbringing and seemed to flourish with the reassurance she gained from being needed.

‘It’s not for ever,’ Christie urged, ‘just until Gilly returns to work full time. They’re expecting that to be next spring or early summer. In the big scheme of things, that’s no time at all. I should earn enough to keep us going for a while and do the house up a bit more. And I’ll pay you for a proper job.’

‘Let me think about it,’ Maureen hedged. She raked a manicured hand through her artfully streaked hair. ‘You know, I can’t put my life on hold much longer. I’ve promised Ted that, one day, we’ll go back to Rajasthan. He’s desperate to see his parents’ graves again. He had a happy time as a boy out there – “son of the Raj”, as he calls himself – and tempus fugit, you know.’

‘Yes, Mum, I do know, but right now I need you. We need you. Look at this place. There’s so much crying out to be done. This is my chance to pay off my overdraft at last and put the house right. I’ve got to do something about the conservatory before it falls in and there’s damp rot in my study and two of the bedrooms. Central-heating that worked would be a bonus. And I need a new washing-machine. I could go on and on.’

‘I did warn you that it would be too much when you bought the place. But would you listen?’

Her knowing tone infuriated Christie, as it so often did. ‘I’m glad I bought it, really glad. It’s home – but the upkeep’s a bit more than I’d imagined.’

Maureen sniffed again and arched her eyebrows.

‘But now I’ve got a chance to begin to sort out the house and my financial problems.’

‘Well, I’m not not helping. I’m just pointing out that it’s not that straightforward.’

For that read, ‘I want you know how much I’m sacrificing,’ thought Christie. Instead, she said, ‘It’s not for long – not even a year – just to collect the kids from school or be here if they’re getting a lift, give them supper, and then I’ll be home.’

‘Anything can happen in that time. Especially when you get to my age. Amy Stanbridge felt a bit strange . . .’

Christie gave an inner groan, knowing that one of her mother’s stories about the Grim Reaper was coming up.

‘. . . She told her husband she was going upstairs for a rest. Never came down again. He found her dead as a doornail on their bed. Hadn’t even had time to take her shoes off. You see, when you get on a bit, you never know.’

‘No, you don’t. But I have to take this job for my sake and for the children’s. If you want to go to India, fine. Just say so, and I’ll find someone else.’ But she knew that this trip was a pipe-dream – Maureen and Ted would never be able to afford it. And Maureen knew that too. Nonetheless, the look that said she was going to be as intransigent as she could be had crossed her face.

As her mother shut her eyes and angled her face to the sun, Christie resigned herself to the wait. She thought back to her screen test, which couldn’t have gone more smoothly. She and Julia had been welcomed to the studio by the programme editor, who had explained that he wanted Christie to read the previous night’s script from Good Evening Britain. She’d had to open the show, and then they had role-played a couple of short interviews. He helped her with the art of the four-minute live television interview. ‘Ask daft lads’ questions,’ he explained. ‘Who? What? Why? Where? When? And then a killer if you can.’ Despite her nerves, she managed to read the autocue, simultaneously listening to the open talkback in her ear, through which she heard the comments, directions, cuts and ribald jokes from the producer and his team in the gallery.

Afterwards, Julia assured her that she had sounded quite natural. Her panic that the autocue would run too fast for her hadn’t shown. She even enjoyed being ‘interviewed’ by Sam Abbott, who was very friendly, easy to talk to, and would be her co-host.

Thankfully, the doyenne of the show, Gilly, hadn’t appeared, due to an appointment with her obstetrician, and Christie had left feeling confident that she had at least done the best she could. Two days later Julia phoned to say the job was hers. ‘I’ve got the contract in front of me, all pretty standard stuff. Nothing we need to go through. Salary’s agreed at five hundred pounds a show payable at the end of each month. I can get it biked round to TV7 this afternoon.’

‘But don’t I have to sign it?’ Everything was happening so fast.

‘With your permission, I can sign it as your representative. Then it’s done and dusted. That’s how I work with most of my clients. They’re relieved not to be bothered with the detail.’ Julia’s brisk and businesslike attitude didn’t invite argument.

‘In which case, if you’re happy with it . . . Better get it back to TV7 before anyone has second thoughts!’ Christie laughed, glad not to have the responsibility of the paperwork.

‘Mmm.’ Julia didn’t.

Now Christie had two weeks in which to put her ducks in a row before she made her début appearance on Good Evening Britain, when she would be introduced by . . . Gilly herself.

Terrified as she was about meeting the clever, witty, much-loved Gilly, her first priority was to appeal again to the more terrifying Maureen, whose eyes were still shut. ‘I don’t want to upset the kids’ routine, if I can help it,’ Christie began.

Her mother’s eyes snapped open. ‘I’ll never get another chance like this.’ Don’t plead with her, she remonstrated with herself. That isn’t the way.

She was interrupted by the sound of her mobile. She fished it out of her pocket.

It was Julia.

‘Julia, hi.’ She made a despairing face at her mother. Her family were already only too aware of the frequent phone calls she received from her agent at all times of the day. Didn’t the woman have a life of her own? ‘No, I haven’t forgotten the photographer first thing tomorrow morning. No, don’t worry, I’ll be looking my best.’ She became aware of Maureen gazing rather pointedly at the remaining biscuit on her chair arm. Defiant, Christie picked it up but hesitated as she remembered the slightly too-tight dress she was planning to wear in her publicity shot for the programme. ‘No, Julia. I definitely won’t be wearing trousers.’

A smile crossed Maureen’s face as Christie hung up. ‘I’m glad to hear that you’ve got somebody making sure you don’t let the side down.’ She paused. ‘All right. I’ll come over in the evenings from four till eight thirty and we’ll see how it works out.’ Overhearing the phone call had obviously tilted the balance.

‘Will you really?’ Christie put the biscuit down. ‘Wait till I tell the children. They’ll be so pleased.’ No harm in bending the truth a little in the interest of family relations.

‘Where are they, anyway?’ Maureen turned towards the house. ‘I thought they might at least come and say hallo to their granny.’

‘Not here, Mum. In fact, I’ve got to go and pick them up in a minute. Libby’s been over at Sophie’s and Fred’s been staying with Richard and Olly again. I can’t tear him away from there. They have such a good time doing all those boy things that I’ve been so bad at.’

‘You can’t expect to be all things to them, you know,’ said Maureen, sounding uncharacteristically wistful. ‘You’re not a bad mother, Christine. And perhaps this second chance is heaven sent. Nick and Daddy would be proud of you.’

Christie looked at her, surprised. This was rare praise indeed. A woman of few generous words, Maureen normally managed to convey a faint air of disapproval when confronted by the chaos her elder daughter generated. But occasionally Christie had to acknowledge that, deep down, her mother wasn’t such a bad old stick. She had just become a creature of habit who controlled her life so that it ran with as few surprises and as much order as possible. They might not always see eye to eye but Christie knew her mother’s heart was in the right place.

Having waved her off, she leapt into the car and drove to collect Libby. Her daughter was sitting on the doorstep of Sophie’s house, swaying her head and mouthing the words to whatever was playing on her iPod Shuffle. As soon as she saw Christie, she got to her feet and ran down the garden path to the car.

‘Where have you been? I told you Soph was going to London with her mum at five.’ She wrenched open the car door and climbed into the passenger seat. ‘I’ve been sitting there for hours.’

‘It’s only ten past!’ Christie protested. ‘I’m so sorry. I was sorting things out with Granny.’

‘Tell me she isn’t going to be over at ours every time you’re at work. Please.’ Libby cast her eyes heavenwards. ‘We don’t need anyone. I can look after us.’

‘You’re only twelve, sweetheart. I wouldn’t put all that responsibility on your shoulders. Besides, it’s illegal.’ Christie wasn’t entirely sure whether leaving a twelve-year-old home alone was or wasn’t against the law, but grasped at the excuse, grateful that it had flashed into her mind.