Robert Falconer

The house in question had been built by Robert’s father, and was, compared with Mrs. Falconer’s one-storey house, large and handsome. Robert had been born, and had spent a few years of his life in it, but could recall nothing of the facts of those early days. Some time before the period at which my history commences it had passed into other hands, and it was now quite strange to him. It had been bought by a retired naval officer, who lived in it with his wife—the only Englishwoman in the place, until the arrival, at The Boar’s Head, of the lady so much admired by Dooble Sanny.

Robert was up-stairs when Betty emptied her news-bag, and so heard nothing of this bit of gossip. He had just assured Shargar that as soon as his grandmother was asleep he would look about for what he could find, and carry it up to him in the garret. As yet he had confined the expenditure out of Shargar’s shilling to twopence.

The household always retired early—earlier on Saturday night in preparation for the Sabbath—and by ten o’clock grannie and Betty were in bed. Robert, indeed, was in bed too; but he had lain down in his clothes, waiting for such time as might afford reasonable hope of his grandmother being asleep, when he might both ease Shargar’s hunger and get to sleep himself. Several times he got up, resolved to make his attempt; but as often his courage failed and he lay down again, sure that grannie could not be asleep yet. When the clock beside him struck eleven, he could bear it no longer, and finally rose to do his endeavour.

Opening the door of the closet slowly and softly, he crept upon his hands and knees into the middle of the parlour, feeling very much like a thief, as, indeed, in a measure he was, though from a blameless motive. But just as he had accomplished half the distance to the door, he was arrested and fixed with terror; for a deep sigh came from grannie’s bed, followed by the voice of words. He thought at first that she had heard him, but he soon found that he was mistaken. Still, the fear of discovery held him there on all fours, like a chained animal. A dull red gleam, faint and dull, from the embers of the fire, was the sole light in the room. Everything so common to his eyes in the daylight seemed now strange and eerie in the dying coals, and at what was to the boy the unearthly hour of the night.

He felt that he ought not to listen to grannie, but terror made him unable to move.

‘Och hone! och hone!’ said grannie from the bed. ‘I’ve a sair, sair hert. I’ve a sair hert i’ my breist, O Lord! thoo knowest. My ain Anerew! To think o’ my bairnie that I cairriet i’ my ain body, that sookit my breists, and leuch i’ my face—to think o’ ‘im bein’ a reprobate! O Lord! cudna he be eleckit yet? Is there nae turnin’ o’ thy decrees? Na, na; that wadna do at a’. But while there’s life there’s houp. But wha kens whether he be alive or no? Naebody can tell. Glaidly wad I luik upon ‘s deid face gin I cud believe that his sowl wasna amang the lost. But eh! the torments o’ that place! and the reik that gangs up for ever an’ ever, smorin’ (smothering) the stars! And my Anerew doon i’ the hert o’ ‘t cryin’! And me no able to win till him! O Lord! I canna say thy will be done. But dinna lay ‘t to my chairge; for gin ye was a mither yersel’ ye wadna pit him there. O Lord! I’m verra ill-fashioned. I beg yer pardon. I’m near oot o’ my min’. Forgie me, O Lord! for I hardly ken what I’m sayin’. He was my ain babe, my ain Anerew, and ye gae him to me yersel’. And noo he’s for the finger o’ scorn to pint at; an ootcast an’ a wan’erer frae his ain country, an’ daurna come within sicht o’ ‘t for them ‘at wad tak’ the law o’ ‘m. An’ it’s a’ drink—drink an’ ill company! He wad hae dune weel eneuch gin they wad only hae latten him be. What for maun men be aye drink-drinkin’ at something or ither? I never want it. Eh! gin I war as young as whan he was born, I wad be up an’ awa’ this verra nicht to luik for him. But it’s no use me tryin’ ‘t. O God! ance mair I pray thee to turn him frae the error o’ ‘s ways afore he goes hence an’ isna more. And O dinna lat Robert gang efter him, as he’s like eneuch to do. Gie me grace to haud him ticht, that he may be to the praise o’ thy glory for ever an’ ever. Amen.’

Whether it was that the weary woman here fell asleep, or that she was too exhausted for further speech, Robert heard no more, though he remained there frozen with horror for some minutes after his grandmother had ceased. This, then, was the reason why she would never speak about his father! She kept all her thoughts about him for the silence of the night, and loneliness with the God who never sleeps, but watches the wicked all through the dark. And his father was one of the wicked! And God was against him! And when he died he would go to hell! But he was not dead yet: Robert was sure of that. And when he grew a man, he would go and seek him, and beg him on his knees to repent and come back to God, who would forgive him then, and take him to heaven when he died. And there he would be good, and good people would love him.

Something like this passed through the boy’s mind ere he moved to creep from the room, for his was one of those natures which are active in the generation of hope. He had almost forgotten what he came there for; and had it not been that he had promised Shargar, he would have crept back to his bed and left him to bear his hunger as best he could. But now, first his right hand, then his left knee, like any other quadruped, he crawled to the door, rose only to his knees to open it, took almost a minute to the operation, then dropped and crawled again, till he had passed out, turned, and drawn the door to, leaving it slightly ajar. Then it struck him awfully that the same terrible passage must be gone through again. But he rose to his feet, for he had no shoes on, and there was little danger of making any noise, although it was pitch dark—he knew the house so well. With gathering courage, he felt his way to the kitchen, and there groped about; but he could find nothing beyond a few quarters of oat-cake, which, with a mug of water, he proceeded to carry up to Shargar in the garret.

When he reached the kitchen door, he was struck with amazement and for a moment with fresh fear. A light was shining into the transe from the stair which went up at right angles from the end of it. He knew it could not be grannie, and he heard Betty snoring in her own den, which opened from the kitchen. He thought it must be Shargar who had grown impatient; but how he had got hold of a light he could not think. As soon as he turned the corner, however, the doubt was changed into mystery. At the top of the broad low stair stood a woman-form with a candle in her hand, gazing about her as if wondering which way to go. The light fell full upon her face, the beauty of which was such that, with her dress, which was white—being, in fact, a nightgown—and her hair, which was hanging loose about her shoulders and down to her waist, it led Robert at once to the conclusion (his reasoning faculties already shaken by the events of the night) that she was an angel come down to comfort his grannie; and he kneeled involuntarily at the foot of the stair, and gazed up at her, with the cakes in one hand, and the mug of water in the other, like a meat-and-drink offering. Whether he had closed his eyes or bowed his head, he could not say; but he became suddenly aware that the angel had vanished—he knew not when, how, or whither. This for a time confirmed his assurance that it was an angel. And although he was undeceived before long, the impression made upon him that night was never effaced. But, indeed, whatever Falconer heard or saw was something more to him than it would have been to anybody else.

Elated, though awed, by the vision, he felt his way up the stair in the new darkness, as if walking in a holy dream, trod as if upon sacred ground as he crossed the landing where the angel had stood—went up and up, and found Shargar wide awake with expectant hunger. He, too, had caught a glimmer of the light. But Robert did not tell him what he had seen. That was too sacred a subject to enter upon with Shargar, and he was intent enough upon his supper not to be inquisitive.

Robert left him to finish it at his leisure, and returned to cross his grandmother’s room once more, half expecting to find the angel standing by her bedside. But all was dark and still. Creeping back as he had come, he heard her quiet, though deep, breathing, and his mind was at ease about her for the night. What if the angel he had surprised had only come to appear to grannie in her sleep? Why not? There were such stories in the Bible, and grannie was certainly as good as some of the people in the Bible that saw angels—Sarah, for instance. And if the angels came to see grannie, why should they not have some care over his father as well? It might be—who could tell?

It is perhaps necessary to explain Robert’s vision. The angel was the owner of the boxes he had seen at The Boar’s Head. Looking around her room before going to bed, she had seen a trap in the floor near the wall, and raising it, had discovered a few steps of a stair leading down to a door. Curiosity naturally led her to examine it. The key was in the lock. It opened outwards, and there she found herself, to her surprise, in the heart of another dwelling, of lowlier aspect. She never saw Robert; for while he approached with shoeless feet, she had been glancing through the open door of the gable-room, and when he knelt, the light which she held in her hand had, I presume, hidden him from her. He, on his part, had not observed that the moveless door stood open at last.

I have already said that the house adjoining had been built by Robert’s father. The lady’s room was that which he had occupied with his wife, and in it Robert had been born. The door, with its trap-stair, was a natural invention for uniting the levels of the two houses, and a desirable one in not a few of the forms which the weather assumed in that region. When the larger house passed into other hands, it had never entered the minds of the simple people who occupied the contiguous dwellings, to build up the doorway between.

CHAPTER IX. A DISCOVERY

The friendship of Robert had gained Shargar the favourable notice of others of the school-public. These were chiefly of those who came from the country, ready to follow an example set them by a town boy. When his desertion was known, moved both by their compassion for him, and their respect for Robert, they began to give him some portion of the dinner they brought with them; and never in his life had Shargar fared so well as for the first week after he had been cast upon the world. But in proportion as their interest faded with the novelty, so their appetites reasserted former claims of use and wont, and Shargar began once more to feel the pangs of hunger. For all that Robert could manage to procure for him without attracting the attention he was so anxious to avoid, was little more than sufficient to keep his hunger alive, Shargar being gifted with a great appetite, and Robert having no allowance of pocket-money from his grandmother. The threepence he had been able to spend on him were what remained of sixpence Mr. Innes had given him for an exercise which he wrote in blank verse instead of in prose—an achievement of which the school-master was proud, both from his reverence for Milton, and from his inability to compose a metrical line himself. And how and when he should ever possess another penny was even unimaginable. Shargar’s shilling was likewise spent. So Robert could but go on pocketing instead of eating all that he dared, watching anxiously for opportunity of evading the eyes of his grandmother. On her dimness of sight, however, he depended too confidently after all; for either she was not so blind as he thought she was, or she made up for the defect of her vision by the keenness of her observation. She saw enough to cause her considerable annoyance, though it suggested nothing inconsistent with rectitude on the part of the boy, further than that there was something underhand going on. One supposition after another arose in the old lady’s brain, and one after another was dismissed as improbable. First, she tried to persuade herself that he wanted to take the provisions to school with him, and eat them there—a proceeding of which she certainly did not approve, but for the reproof of which she was unwilling to betray the loopholes of her eyes. Next she concluded, for half a day, that he must have a pair of rabbits hidden away in some nook or other—possibly in the little strip of garden belonging to the house. And so conjecture followed conjecture for a whole week, during which, strange to say, not even Betty knew that Shargar slept in the house. For so careful and watchful were the two boys, that although she could not help suspecting something from the expression and behaviour of Robert, what that something might be she could not imagine; nor had she and her mistress as yet exchanged confidences on the subject. Her observation coincided with that of her mistress as to the disappearance of odds and ends of eatables—potatoes, cold porridge, bits of oat-cake; and even, on one occasion, when Shargar happened to be especially ravenous, a yellow, or cured and half-dried, haddock, which the lad devoured raw, vanished from her domain. He went to school in the morning smelling so strong in consequence, that they told him he must have been passing the night in Scroggie’s cart, and not on his horse’s back this time.

The boys kept their secret well.

One evening, towards the end of the week, Robert, after seeing Shargar disposed of for the night, proceeded to carry out a project which had grown in his brain within the last two days in consequence of an occurrence with which his relation to Shargar had had something to do. It was this:

The housing of Shargar in the garret had led Robert to make a close acquaintance with the place. He was familiar with all the outs and ins of the little room which he considered his own, for that was a civilized, being a plastered, ceiled, and comparatively well-lighted little room, but not with the other, which was three times its size, very badly lighted, and showing the naked couples from roof-tree to floor. Besides, it contained no end of dark corners, with which his childish imagination had associated undefined horrors, assuming now one shape, now another. Also there were several closets in it, constructed in the angles of the place, and several chests—two of which he had ventured to peep into. But although he had found them filled, not with bones, as he had expected, but one with papers, and one with garments, he had yet dared to carry his researches no further. One evening, however, when Betty was out, and he had got hold of her candle, and gone up to keep Shargar company for a few minutes, a sudden impulse seized him to have a peep into all the closets. One of them he knew a little about, as containing, amongst other things, his father’s coat with the gilt buttons, and his great-grandfather’s kilt, as well as other garments useful to Shargar: now he would see what was in the rest. He did not find anything very interesting, however, till he arrived at the last. Out of it he drew a long queer-shaped box into the light of Betty’s dip.

‘Luik here, Shargar!’ he said under his breath, for they never dared to speak aloud in these precincts—‘luik here! What can there be in this box? Is’t a bairnie’s coffin, duv ye think? Luik at it.’

In this case Shargar, having roamed the country a good deal more than Robert, and having been present at some merry-makings with his mother, of which there were comparatively few in that country-side, was better informed than his friend.

‘Eh! Bob, duvna ye ken what that is? I thocht ye kent a’ thing. That’s a fiddle.’

‘That’s buff an’ styte (stuff and nonsense), Shargar. Do ye think I dinna ken a fiddle whan I see ane, wi’ its guts ootside o’ ‘ts wame, an’ the thoomacks to screw them up wi’ an’ gar’t skirl?’

‘Buff an’ styte yersel’!’ cried Shargar, in indignation, from the bed. ‘Gie’s a haud o’ ‘t.’

Robert handed him the case. Shargar undid the hooks in a moment, and revealed the creature lying in its shell like a boiled bivalve.

‘I tellt ye sae!’ he exclaimed triumphantly. ‘Maybe ye’ll lippen to me (trust me) neist time.’

‘An’ I tellt you,’ retorted Robert, with an equivocation altogether unworthy of his growing honesty. ‘I was cocksure that cudna be a fiddle. There’s the fiddle i’ the hert o’ ‘t! Losh! I min’ noo. It maun be my grandfather’s fiddle ‘at I hae heard tell o’.’

‘No to ken a fiddle-case!’ reflected Shargar, with as much of contempt as it was possible for him to show.

‘I tell ye what, Shargar,’ returned Robert, indignantly; ‘ye may ken the box o’ a fiddle better nor I do, but de’il hae me gin I dinna ken the fiddle itsel’ raither better nor ye do in a fortnicht frae this time. I s’ tak’ it to Dooble Sanny; he can play the fiddle fine. An’ I’ll play ‘t too, or the de’il s’ be in’t.’

‘Eh, man, that ‘ll be gran’!’ cried Shargar, incapable of jealousy. ‘We can gang to a’ the markets thegither and gaither baubees (halfpence).’

To this anticipation Robert returned no reply, for, hearing Betty come in, he judged it time to restore the violin to its case, and Betty’s candle to the kitchen, lest she should invade the upper regions in search of it. But that very night he managed to have an interview with Dooble Sanny, the shoemaker, and it was arranged between them that Robert should bring his violin on the evening at which my story has now arrived.

Whatever motive he had for seeking to commence the study of music, it holds even in more important matters that, if the thing pursued be good, there is a hope of the pursuit purifying the motive. And Robert no sooner heard the fiddle utter a few mournful sounds in the hands of the soutar, who was no contemptible performer, than he longed to establish such a relation between himself and the strange instrument, that, dumb and deaf as it had been to him hitherto, it would respond to his touch also, and tell him the secrets of its queerly-twisted skull, full of sweet sounds instead of brains. From that moment he would be a musician for music’s own sake, and forgot utterly what had appeared to him, though I doubt if it was, the sole motive of his desire to learn—namely, the necessity of retaining his superiority over Shargar.

What added considerably to the excitement of his feelings on the occasion, was the expression of reverence, almost of awe, with which the shoemaker took the instrument from its case, and the tenderness with which he handled it. The fact was that he had not had a violin in his hands for nearly a year, having been compelled to pawn his own in order to alleviate the sickness brought on his wife by his own ill-treatment of her, once that he came home drunk from a wedding. It was strange to think that such dirty hands should be able to bring such sounds out of the instrument the moment he got it safely cuddled under his cheek. So dirty were they, that it was said Dooble Sanny never required to carry any rosin with him for fiddler’s need, his own fingers having always enough upon them for one bow at least. Yet the points of those fingers never lost the delicacy of their touch. Some people thought this was in virtue of their being washed only once a week—a custom Alexander justified on the ground that, in a trade like his, it was of no use to wash oftener, for he would be just as dirty again before night.

The moment he began to play, the face of the soutar grew ecstatic. He stopped at the very first note, notwithstanding, let fall his arms, the one with the bow, the other with the violin, at his sides, and said, with a deep-drawn respiration and lengthened utterance:

‘Eh!’

Then after a pause, during which he stood motionless:

‘The crater maun be a Cry Moany! Hear till her!’ he added, drawing another long note.

Then, after another pause:

‘She’s a Straddle Vawrious at least! Hear till her. I never had sic a combination o’ timmer and catgut atween my cleuks (claws) afore.’

As to its being a Stradivarius, or even a Cremona at all, the testimony of Dooble Sanny was not worth much on the point. But the shoemaker’s admiration roused in the boy’s mind a reverence for the individual instrument which he never lost.

From that day the two were friends.

Suddenly the soutar started off at full speed in a strathspey, which was soon lost in the wail of a Highland psalm-tune, giving place in its turn to ‘Sic a wife as Willie had!’ And on he went without pause, till Robert dared not stop any longer. The fiddle had bewitched the fiddler.

‘Come as aften ‘s ye like, Robert, gin ye fess this leddy wi’ ye,’ said the soutar.

And he stroked the back of the violin tenderly with his open palm.

‘But wad ye hae ony objection to lat it lie aside ye, and lat me come whan I can?’

‘Objection, laddie? I wad as sune objeck to lattin’ my ain wife lie aside me.’

‘Ay,’ said Robert, seized with some anxiety about the violin as he remembered the fate of the wife, ‘but ye ken Elspet comes aff a’ the waur sometimes.’

Softened by the proximity of the wonderful violin, and stung afresh by the boy’s words as his conscience had often stung him before, for he loved his wife dearly save when the demon of drink possessed him, the tears rose in Elshender’s eyes. He held out the violin to Robert, saying, with unsteady voice:

‘Hae, tak her awa’. I dinna deserve to hae sic a thing i’ my hoose. But hear me, Robert, and lat hearin’ be believin’. I never was sae drunk but I cud tune my fiddle. Mair by token, ance they fand me lyin’ o’ my back i’ the Corrie, an’ the watter, they say, was ower a’ but the mou’ o’ me; but I was haudin’ my fiddle up abune my heid, and de’il a spark o’ watter was upo’ her.’

‘It’s a pity yer wife wasna yer fiddle, than, Sanny,’ said Robert, with more presumption than wit.

‘’Deed ye’re i’ the richt, there, Robert. Hae, tak’ yer fiddle.’

‘’Deed no,’ returned Robert. ‘I maun jist lippen (trust) to ye, Sanders. I canna bide langer the nicht; but maybe ye’ll tell me hoo to haud her the neist time ‘at I come—will ye?’

‘That I wull, Robert, come whan ye like. An’ gin ye come o’ ane ‘at cud play this fiddle as this fiddle deserves to be playt, ye’ll do me credit.’

‘Ye min’ what that sumph Lumley said to me the ither nicht, Sanders, aboot my grandfather?’

‘Ay, weel eneuch. A dish o’ drucken havers!’

‘It was true eneuch aboot my great-grandfather, though.’

‘No! Was’t railly?’

‘Ay. He was the best piper in ‘s regiment at Culloden. Gin they had a’ fouchten as he pipit, there wad hae been anither tale to tell. And he was toon-piper forby, jist like you, Sanders, efter they took frae him a’ ‘at he had.’

‘Na! heard ye ever the like o’ that! Weel, wha wad hae thocht it? Faith! we maun hae you fiddle as weel as yer lucky-daiddy pipit.—But here’s the King o’ Bashan comin’ efter his butes, an’ them no half dune yet!’ exclaimed Dooble Sanny, settling in haste to his awl and his lingel (Fr. ligneul). ‘He’ll be roarin’ mair like a bull o’ the country than the king o’ ‘t.’

As Robert departed, Peter Ogg came in, and as he passed the window, he heard the shoemaker averring:

‘I haena risen frae my stule sin’ ane o’clock; but there’s a sicht to be dune to them, Mr. Ogg.’

Indeed, Alexander ab Alexandro, as Mr. Innes facetiously styled him, was in more ways than one worthy of the name of Dooble. There seemed to be two natures in the man, which all his music had not yet been able to blend.

CHAPTER X. ANOTHER DISCOVERY IN THE GARRET

Little did Robert dream of the reception that awaited him at home. Almost as soon as he had left the house, the following events began to take place.

The mistress’s bell rang, and Betty ‘gaed benn the hoose to see what she cud be wantin’,’ whereupon a conversation ensued.

‘Wha was that at the door, Betty?’ asked Mrs. Falconer; for Robert had not shut the door so carefully as he ought, seeing that the deafness of his grandmother was of much the same faculty as her blindness.

Had Robert not had a hold of Betty by the forelock of her years, he would have been unable to steal any liberty at all. Still Betty had a conscience, and although she would not offend Robert if she could help it, yet she would not lie.

‘’Deed, mem, I canna jist distinckly say ‘at I heard the door,’ she answered.

‘Whaur’s Robert?’ was her next question.

‘He’s generally up the stair aboot this hoor, mem—that is, whan he’s no i’ the parlour at ‘s lessons.’