Barrington. Volume 1

“It is true, the Colonel never regarded the project as I did, and saw obstacles to its success which never occurred to me; with all that, however, he never convinced me I was wrong.”

“Perhaps not always an easy thing to do,” said she, dryly.

“Indeed! You seem to have formed a strong opinion on the score of my firmness.”

“I was expecting you to say obstinacy,” said she, laughing, “and was half prepared with a most abject retractation. At all events, I was aware that you did not give way.”

“And is the quality such a bad one?”

“Just as a wind may be said to be a good or a bad one; due west, for instance, would be very unfavorable if you were bound to New York.”

It was the second time he had angled for a compliment, and failed; and he walked along at her side, fretful and discontented. “I begin to suspect,” said he, at last, “that the Colonel was far more eager to make himself agreeable here than to give fair play to my reasons.”

“He was delightful, if you mean that; he possesses the inestimable boon of good spirits, which is the next thing to a good heart.”

“You don’t like depressed people, then?”

“I won’t say I dislike, but I dread them. The dear friends who go about with such histories of misfortune and gloomy reflections on every one’s conduct always give me the idea of a person who should carry with him a watering-pot to sprinkle his friends in this Irish climate, where it rains ten months out of the twelve. There is a deal to like in life, – a deal to enjoy, as well as a deal to see and to do; and the spirit which we bring to it is even of more moment than the incidents that befall us.”

“That was the burden of your song awhile ago,” said he, smiling; “could I persuade you to sing it again?”

“What are you dreaming of, Mr. Conyers? Is not this meeting here – this strolling about a garden with a young gentleman, a Hussar! – compromising enough, not to ask me to sit down at a piano and sing for him? Indeed, the only relief my conscience gives me for the imprudence of this interview is the seeing how miserable it makes you.”

“Miserable! – makes me miserable!”

“Well, embarrassed, – uncomfortable, – ill at ease; I don’t care for the word. You came here to say a variety of things, and you don’t like to say them. You are balked in certain very kind intentions towards us, and you don’t know how very little of even intended good nature has befallen us in life to make us deeply your debtor for the mere project. Why, your very notice of poor Tom has done more to raise him in his own esteem and disgust him with low associates than all the wise arguments of all his family. There, now, if you have not done us all the good you meant, be satisfied with what you really have done.”

“This is very far short of what I intended.”

“Of course it is; but do not dwell upon that. I have a great stock of very fine intentions, too, but I shall not be in the least discouraged if I find them take wing and leave me.”

“What would you do then?”

“Raise another brood. They tell us that if one seed of every million of acorns should grow to be a tree, all Europe would be a dense forest within a century. Take heart, therefore, about scattered projects; fully their share of them come to maturity. Oh dear! what a dreary sigh you gave! Don’t you imagine yourself very unhappy?”

“If I did, I’d scarcely come to you for sympathy, certainly,” said he, with a half-bitter smile.

“You are quite right there; not but that I could really condole with some of what I opine are your great afflictions: for instance, I could bestow very honest grief on that splint that your charger has just thrown out on his back tendon; I could even cry over the threatened blindness of that splendid steeple-chaser; but I ‘d not fret about the way your pelisse was braided, nor because your new phaeton made so much noise with the axles.”

“By the way,” said Conyers, “I have such a horse to show you! He is in the village. Might I drive him up here? Would you allow me to take you back?”

“Not on any account, sir! I have grave misgivings about talking to you so long here, and I am mainly reconciled by remembering how disagreeable I have proved myself.”

“How I wish I had your good spirits!”

“Why don’t you rather wish for my fortunate lot in life, – so secure from casualties, so surrounded with life’s comforts, so certain to attach to it consideration and respect? Take my word for it, Mr. Conyers, your own position is not utterly wretched; it is rather a nice thing to be a Lieutenant of Hussars, with good health, a good fortune, and a fair promise of mustachios. There, now, enough of impertinence for one day. I have a deal to do, and you ‘ll not help me to do it. I have a whole tulip-bed to transplant, and several trees to remove, and a new walk to plan through the beech shrubbery, not to speak of a change of domicile for the pigs, – if such creatures can be spoken of in your presence. Only think, three o’clock, and that weary Darby not got back from his dinner! has it ever occurred to you to wonder at the interminable time people can devote to a meal of potatoes?”

“I cannot say that I have thought upon the matter.”

“Pray do so, then; divide the matter, as a German would, into all its ‘Bearbeitungen,’ and consider it ethnologically, esculently, and aesthetically, and you’ll be surprised how puzzled you ‘ll be! Meanwhile, would you do me a favor? – I mean a great favor.”

“Of course I will; only say what it is.”

“Well; but I ‘m about to ask more than you suspect.”

“I do not retract. I am ready.”

“What I want, then, is that you should wheel that barrow-ful of mould as far as the melon-bed. I ‘d have done it myself if you had not been here.”

With a seriousness which cost him no small effort to maintain, Conyers addressed himself at once to the task; and she walked along at his side, with a rake over her shoulder, talking with the same cool unconcern she would have bestowed on Darby.

“I have often told Miss Barrington,” said she, “that our rock melons were finer than hers, because we used a peculiar composite earth, into which ash bark and soot entered, – what you are wheeling now, in fact, however hurtful it may be to your feelings. There! upset it exactly on that spot; and now let me see if you are equally handy with a spade.”

“I should like to know what my wages are to be after all this,” said he, as he spread the mould over the bed.

“We give boys about eightpence a day.”

“Boys! what do you mean by boys?”

“Everything that is not married is boy in Ireland; so don’t be angry, or I ‘ll send you off. Pick up those stones, and throw these dock-weeds to one side.”

“You ‘ll send me a melon, at least, of my own raising, won’t you?”

“I won’t promise; Heaven knows where you’ll be – where I ‘ll be, by that time! Would you like to pledge yourself to anything on the day the ripe fruit shall glow between those pale leaves?”

“Perhaps I might,” said he, stealing a half-tender glance towards her.

“Well, I would not,” said she, looking him full and steadfastly in the face.

“Then that means you never cared very much for any one?”

“If I remember aright, you were engaged as a gardener, not as father confessor. Now, you are really not very expert at the former; but you ‘ll make sad work of the latter.”

“You have not a very exalted notion of my tact, Miss Dill.”

“I don’t know, – I’m not sure; I suspect you have at least what the French call ‘good dispositions.’ You took to your wheelbarrow very nicely, and you tried to dig – as little like a gentleman as need be.”

“Well, if this does not bate Banagher, my name is n’t Darby!” exclaimed a rough voice, and a hearty laugh followed his words. “By my conscience, Miss Polly, it’s only yerself could do it; and it’s truth they say of you, you ‘d get fun out of an archdaycon!”

Conyers flung away his spade, and shook the mould from his boots in irritation.

“Come, don’t be cross,” said she, slipping her arm within his, and leading him away; “don’t spoil a very pleasant little adventure by ill humor. If these melons come to good, they shall be called after you. You know that a Duke of Montmartre gave his name to a gooseberry; so be good, and, like him, you shall be immortal.”

“I should like very much to know one thing,” said he, thoughtfully.

“And what may that be?”

“I ‘d like to know, – are you ever serious?”

“Not what you would call serious, perhaps; but I ‘m very much in earnest, if that will do. That delightful Saxon habit of treating all trifles with solemnity I have no taste for. I’m aware it constitutes that great idol of English veneration, Respectability; but we have not got that sort of thing here. Perhaps the climate is too moist for it.”

“I ‘m not a bit surprised that the Colonel fell in love with you,” blurted he out, with a frank abruptness.

“And did he, – oh, really did he?”

“Is the news so very agreeable, then?”

“Of course it is. I ‘d give anything for such a conquest. There ‘s no glory in capturing one of those calf elephants who walk into the snare out of pure stupidity; but to catch an old experienced creature who has been hunted scores of times, and knows every scheme and artifice, every bait and every pitfall, there is a real triumph in that.”

“Do I represent one of the calf elephants, then?”

“I cannot think so. I have seen no evidence of your capture – not to add, nor any presumption of my own – to engage in such a pursuit. My dear Mr. Conyers,” said she, seriously, “you have shown so much real kindness to the brother, you would not, I am certain, detract from it by one word which could offend the sister. We have been the best of friends up to this; let us part so.”

The sudden assumption of gravity in this speech seemed to disconcert him so much that he made no answer, but strolled along at her side, thoughtful and silent.

“What are you thinking of?” said she, at last.

“I was just thinking,” said he, “that by the time I have reached my quarters, and begin to con over what I have accomplished by this same visit of mine, I ‘ll be not a little puzzled to say what it is.”

“Perhaps I can help you. First of all, tell me what was your object in coming.”

“Chiefly to talk about Tom.”

“Well, we have done so. We have discussed the matter, and are fully agreed it is better he should not go to India, but stay at home here and follow his profession, like his father.”

“But have I said nothing about Hunter’s offer?”

“Not a word; what is it?”

“How stupid of me; what could I have been thinking of all this time?”

“Heaven knows; but what was the offer you allude to?”

“It was this: that if Tom would make haste and get his diploma or his license, or whatever it is, at once, and collect all sorts of testimonials as to his abilities and what not, that he’d take him out with him and get him an assistant-surgeoncy in a regiment, and in time, perhaps, a staff-appointment.”

“I ‘m not very certain that Tom could obtain his diploma at once. I ‘m quite sure he could n’t get any of those certificates you speak of. First of all, because he does not possess these same abilities you mention, nor, if he did, is there any to vouch for them. We are very humble people, Mr. Conyers, with a village for our world; and we contemplate a far-away country – India, for instance – pretty much as we should do Mars or the Pole-star.”

“As to that, Bengal is more come-at-able than the Great Bear,” said he, laughing.

“For you, perhaps, not for us. There is nothing more common in people’s mouths than go to New Zealand or Swan River, or some far-away island in the Pacific, and make your fortune! – just as if every new and barbarous land was a sort of Aladdin’s cave, where each might fill his pockets with gems and come out rich for life. But reflect a little. First, there is an outfit; next, there is a voyage; thirdly, there is need of a certain subsistence in the new country before plans can be matured to render it profitable. After all these come a host of requirements, – of courage, and energy, and patience, and ingenuity, and personal strength, and endurance, not to speak of the constitution of a horse, and some have said, the heartlessness of an ogre. My counsel to Tom would be, get the ‘Arabian Nights’ out of your head, forget the great Caliph Conyers and all his promises, stay where you are, and be a village apothecary.”

These words were uttered in a very quiet and matter-of-fact way, but they wounded Conyers more than the accents of passion. He was angry at the cold realistic turn of a mind so devoid of all heroism; he was annoyed at the half-implied superiority a keener view of life than his own seemed to assert; and he was vexed at being treated as a well-meaning but very inconsiderate and inexperienced young gentleman.

“Am I to take this as a refusal,” said he, stiffly; “am I to tell Colonel Hunter that your brother does not accept his offer?”

“If it depended on me, – yes; but it does not. I ‘ll write to-night and tell Tom the generous project that awaits him; he shall decide for himself.”

“I know Hunter will be annoyed; he’ll think it was through some bungling mismanagement of mine his plan has failed; he ‘ll be certain to say, If it was I myself bad spoken toner – ”

“Well, there’s no harm in letting him think so,” said she, laughing. “Tell him I think him charming, that I hope he ‘ll have a delightful voyage and a most prosperous career after it, that I intend to read the Indian columns in the newspaper from this day out, and will always picture him to my mind as seated in the grandest of howdabs on the very tallest of elephants, humming ‘Rule Britannia’ up the slopes of the Himalaya, and as the penny-a-liners say, extending the blessings of the English rule in India.” She gave her hand to him, made a little salutation, – half bow, half courtesy, – and, saying “Good-bye,” turned back into the shrubbery and left him.

He hesitated, – almost turned to follow her; waited a second or two more, and then, with an impatient toss of his head, walked briskly to the river-side and jumped into his boat. It was a sulky face that he wore, and a sulky spirit was at work within him. There is no greater discontent than that of him who cannot define the chagrin that consumes him. In reality, he was angry with himself, but he turned the whole force of his displeasure upon her.

“I suppose she is clever. I ‘m no judge of that sort of thing; but, for my own part, I’d rather see her more womanly, more delicate. She has not a bit of heart, that’s quite clear; nor, with all her affectations, does she pretend it.” These were his first meditations, and after them he lit a cigar and smoked it. The weed was a good one; the evening was beautifully calm and soft, and the river scenery looked its very best. He tried to think of a dozen things: he imagined, for instance, what a picturesque thing a boat-race would be in such a spot; he fancied he saw a swift gig sweep round the point and head up the stream; he caught sight of a little open in the trees with a background of dark rock, and he thought what a place for a cottage. But whether it was the “match” or the “chalet” that occupied him, Polly Dill was a figure in the picture; and he muttered unconsciously, “How pretty she is, what a deal of expression those gray-blue eyes possess! She’s as active as a fawn, and to the full as graceful. Fancy her an Earl’s daughter; give her station and all the advantages station will bring with it, – what a girl it would be! Not that she’d ever have a heart; I’m certain of that. She’s as worldly – as worldly as – ” The exact similitude did not occur; but he flung the end of his cigar into the river instead, and sat brooding mournfully for the rest of the way.

CHAPTER XXV. DUBLIN REVISITED

The first stage of the Barringtons’ journey was Dublin. They alighted at Reynolds’s Hotel, in Old Dominick Street, the once favorite resort of country celebrities. The house, it is true, was there, but Reynolds had long left for a land where there is but one summons and one reckoning; even the old waiter, Foster, whom people believed immortal, was gone; and save some cumbrous old pieces of furniture, – barbarous relics of bad taste in mahogany, – nothing recalled the past. The bar, where once on a time the “Beaux” and “Bloods” had gathered to exchange the smart things of the House or the hunting-field, was now a dingy little receptacle for umbrellas and overcoats, with a rickety case crammed full of unacknowledged and unclaimed letters, announcements of cattle fairs, and bills of houses to let. Decay and neglect were on everything, and the grim little waiter who ushered them upstairs seemed as much astonished at their coming as were they themselves with all they saw. It was not for some time, nor without searching inquiry, that Miss Dinah discovered that the tide of popular favor had long since retired from this quarter, and left it a mere barren strand, wreck-strewn and deserted. The house where formerly the great squire held his revels had now fallen to be the resort of the traveller by canal-boat, the cattle salesman, or the priest. While she by an ingenious cross-examination was eliciting these details, Barrington had taken a walk through the city to revisit old scenes and revive old memories. One needs not to be as old as Peter Barrington to have gone through this process and experienced all its pain. Unquestionably, every city of Europe has made within such a period as five-and-thirty or forty years immense strides of improvement. Wider and finer streets, more commodious thoroughfares, better bridges, lighter areas, more brilliant shops, strike one on every hand; while the more permanent monuments of architecture are more cleanly, more orderly, and more cared for than of old. We see these things with astonishment and admiration at first, and then there comes a pang of painful regret, – not for the old dark alley and the crooked street, or the tumbling arch of long ago, – but for the time when they were there, for the time when they entered into our daily life, when with them were associated friends long lost sight of, and scenes dimly fading away from memory. It is for our youth, for the glorious spring and elasticity of our once high-hearted spirit, of our lives so free of care, of our days undarkened by a serious sorrow, – it is for these we mourn, and to our eyes at such moments the spacious street is but a desert, and the splendid monument but a whitened sepulchre!

“I don’t think I ever had a sadder walk in my life, Dinah,” said Peter Barrington, with a weary sigh. “‘Till I got into the courts of the College, I never chanced upon a spot that looked as I had left it. There, indeed, was the quaint old square as of old, and the great bell – bless it for its kind voice! – was ringing out a solemn call to something, that shook the window-frames, and made the very air tremulous; and a pale-faced student or two hurried past, and those centurions in the helmets, – ancient porters or Senior Fellows, – I forget which, – stood in a little knot to stare at me. That, indeed, was like old times, Dinah, and my heart grew very full with the memory. After that I strolled down to the Four Courts. I knew you ‘d laugh, Dinah. I knew well you ‘d say, ‘Was there nothing going on in the King’s Bench or the Common Pleas?’ Well, there was only a Revenue case, my dear, but it was interesting, very interesting; and there was my old friend Harry Bushe sitting as the Judge. He saw me, and sent round the tipstaff to have me come up and sit on the bench with him, and we had many a pleasant remembrance of old times – as the cross-examination went on – between us, and I promised to dine with him on Saturday.”

“And on Saturday we will dine at Antwerp, brother, if I know anything of myself.”

“Sure enough, sister, I forgot all about it Well, well, where could my head have been?”

“Pretty much where you have worn it of late years, Peter Barrington. And what of Withering? Did you see him?”

“No, Dinah, he was attending a Privy Council; but I got his address, and I mean to go over to see him after dinner.”

“Please to bear in mind that you are not to form any engagements, Peter, – we leave this to-morrow evening by the packet, – if it was the Viceroy himself that wanted your company.”

“Of course, dear, I never thought of such a thing. It was only when Harry said, ‘You ‘ll be glad to meet Casey and Burrowes, and a few others of the old set,’ I clean forgot everything of the present, and only lived in the long-past time, when life really was a very jolly thing.”

“How did you find your friend looking?”

“Old, Dinah, very old! That vile wig has, perhaps, something to say to it; and being a judge, too, gives a sternness to the mouth and a haughty imperiousness to the brow. It spoils Harry; utterly spoils that laughing blue eye, and that fine rich humor that used to play about his lips.”

“Which did, you ought to say, – which did some forty years ago. What are you laughing at, Peter? What is it amuses you so highly?”

“It was a charge of O’Grady’s, that Harry told me, – a charge to one of those petty juries that, he says, never will go right, do what you may. The case was a young student of Trinity, tried for a theft, and whose defence was only by witnesses to character, and O’Grady said, ‘Gentlemen of the jury, the issue before you is easy enough. This is a young gentleman of pleasing manners and the very best connections, who stole a pair of silk stockings, and you will find accordingly.’ And what d’ye think, Dinah? They acquitted him, just out of compliment to the Bench.”

“I declare, brother Peter, such a story inspires any other sentiment than mirth to me.”

“I laughed at it till my sides ached,” said he, wiping his eyes. “I took a peep into the Chancery Court and saw O’Connell, who has plenty of business, they tell me. He was in some altercation with the Court. Lord Manners was scowling at him, as if he hated him. I hear that no day passes without some angry passage between them.”

“And is it of these jangling, quarrelsome, irritable, and insolent men your ideal of agreeable society is made up, brother Peter?”

“Not a doubt of it, Dinah. All these displays are briefed to them. They cannot help investing in their client’s cause the fervor of their natures, simply because they are human; but they know how to leave all the acrimony of the contest in the wig-box, when they undress and come back to their homes, – the most genial, hearty, and frank fellows in all the world. If human nature were all bad, sister, he who saw it closest would be, I own, most like to catch its corruption, but it is not so, far from it. Every day and every hour reveals something to make a man right proud of his fellow-men.”

Miss Barrington curtly recalled her brother from these speculations to the practical details of their journey, reminding him of much that he had to consult Withering upon, and many questions of importance to put to him. Thoroughly impressed with the perils of a journey abroad, she conjured up a vast array of imaginary difficulties, and demanded special instructions how each of them was to be met. Had poor Peter been – what he certainly was not – a most accomplished casuist, he might have been puzzled by the ingenious complexity of some of those embarrassments. As it was, like a man in the labyrinth, too much bewildered to attempt escape, he sat down in a dogged insensibility, and actually heard nothing.

“Are you minding me, Peter?” asked she, fretfully, at last; “are you paying attention to what I am saying?”

“Of course I am, Dinah dear; I’m listening with all ears.”

“What was it, then, that I last remarked? What was the subject to which I asked your attention?”

Thus suddenly called on, poor Peter started and rubbed his forehead. Vague shadows of passport people, and custom-house folk, and waiters, and money-changers, and brigands; insolent postilions, importunate beggars, cheating innkeepers, and insinuating swindlers were passing through his head, with innumerable incidents of the road; and, trying to catch a clew at random, he said, “It was to ask the Envoy, her Majesty’s Minister at Brussels, about a washerwoman who would not tear off my shirt buttons – eh, Dinah? wasn’t that it?”

“You are insupportable, Peter Barrington,” said she, rising in anger. “I believe that insensibility like this is not to be paralleled!” and she left the room in wrath.

Peter looked at his watch, and was glad to see it was past eight o’clock, and about the hour he meant for his visit to Withering. He set out accordingly, not, indeed, quite satisfied with the way he had lately acquitted himself, but consoled by thinking that Dinah rarely went back of a morning on the dereliction of the evening before, so that they should meet good friends as ever at the breakfast-table. Withering was at home, but a most discreet-looking butler intimated that he had dined that day tête-à-tête with a gentleman, and had left orders not to be disturbed on any pretext “Could you not at least, send in my name?” said Barrington; “I am a very old friend of your master’s, whom he would regret not having seen.” A little persuasion aided by an argument that butlers usually succumb to succeeded, and before Peter believed that his card could have reached its destination, his friend was warmly shaking him by both hands, as he hurried him into the dinner-room.