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A Marriage In Wyoming
She was watching Kim retreat down the hallway. âI beg your pardon?â
âMy guess is that you woke up this morning and decided that you let me get too close last night. So today youâre making sure to put space between us, so I wonât get the wrong idea.â
When her startled gaze came to his, he gave her a quizzical smile. âDo you really think thatâs going to work?â
* * *
RACHEL DIDNâT LIKE being so easily read. âWhy would you come to mind at all this morning?â She made herself hold his stare, but she could feel heat rising in her cheeks.
âFor the same reason you came to my mind. Simple attraction.â
She restrained herself from rushing into denial, which would only confirm his suspicion. âThatâs a pretty big assumption. We only met yesterday.â
âBut we spent most of the day togetherâseveral datesâ worth of time, in my estimation. I believe I know you pretty well already.â
âI doubt that. And Iâm sure I donât know you.â
âEvidently well enough to declare that weâre incompatible.â
âThatâs based on one obvious fact.â
âWhich to me makes it a pretty shaky conclusion. As a rational person, shouldnât you investigate further and determine whether youâre right or whether you might, in actuality, be wrong? We could be the most well-matched couple in Bisons Creek. And thatâs saying something, since we have married folks approaching their fiftieth wedding anniversary.â
Rachel shook her head. âYouâre persistent, Iâll give you that. But why put ourselves through the pain of trying out a relationship that simply canât succeed? Iâm going to be busy establishing my practice. You have your church, your ranch, the teenagers youâre working with and now Lenaâs diabetes. Neither of us has time to wedge another person into our lives, especially when that person will only make trouble.â
âMake trouble?â
âIâll get impatient with your faith-based approach to life. Youâll try to change my mind, draw me into your church, which Iâll resist. Weâll argue and then weâll break up, with a lot of torment on both sides. Iâm suggesting we avoid that distress by keeping our connection casual.â
His smile faded and he gave a long, low whistle. âYouâve got it all figured out, after one day.â Hands in the pockets of his jeans, he shrugged. âI think youâre wrong about both of us. As I see it, we could learn from each other, improve both our lives by sharing our points of view. Iâm not some wild-eyed hermit who sees visions and hears voices. Iâm just an ordinary guy who hopes to make things better for the people of his community with a little faith, hope and love. And the greatest of those is love.â He sighed. âIf casual is what you want, though, thatâs what youâll get. Ready to check in with Lena?â
âOf course.â
He let her go into the room ahead of him, his usual polite approach. But Rachel noticed a difference in the air around them, as if a light had dimmed and there were shadows where there used to be brightness. Garrett seemed to be himself when talking to Lena and Justino, telling jokes and relating stories about his adventures on the ranch. He was certainly as polite as ever when she joined in the conversation. But the coolness of his gaze when he glanced at her, his politeness as he listened when she spoke, put a chill in the air. She wished she had a sweater to warm up.
Kim Kaiser returned in the afternoon to give Lena and Garrett an intensive session on insulinâthe different types and how to measure it, the kinds of situations that called for adjustments in dosages.
Lena soon got frustrated. âThis is worse than school! I canât understand all these numbers and names.â
Garrett was frowning at the papers heâd been given. âI have to agree. Rapid-acting, intermediate, long-term...how do we know what to use when?â
Kim obviously tried to be patient. âLena will test her blood-sugar level and then decide how much insulin to take based on what she has eaten or is planning to eat.â
âHow often do I have to do this test?â
âWhen you get up in the morning, before lunch, before dinner and at bedtime.â
âEvery day?â
âThat would be safest. Another positive step to take is a twenty-four-hour check, so youâll track how your blood sugar behaves during the night when youâre asleep.â
âThat sounds pretty difficult,â Garrett said. âSetting an alarm every couple of hours?â
âOr having someone wake her up to do the test.â
Lena slapped her hands down on the blanket. âWonderful.â
Rachel walked to the end of the bed. âThis all seems overwhelming, doesnât it?â
âOh, yes.â
âThereâs a lot you have to learn at the beginning. As with any new skillâhorses, for example. You didnât just get on and know everything about riding.â
âIt was easier than this.â
âOr how about dancing? Do you like to dance? Salsa, maybe?â
Lena glanced at her boyfriend and grinned. âWe love to dance.â
âBut you had to learn the steps slowly at first, and concentrate on where to put each foot, how to move your hips and hands and head.â
âI guess so.â
âWith your diabetes, you have to learn the steps. Testing your blood sugar is the first one. Knowing which insulin to take at the right time is next. Figuring out when and what to eat is also important. All of these moves will help you stay well.â
âBut itâs sooooo complicated.â
âSalsa dancing is complicated for me,â Garrett said. âIâm totally uncoordinated when I try.â
That made Lena laugh, as heâd surely intended. âI can teach you,â she said, âwhen we go back.â
âItâs a plan.â He nodded firmly. âBut for now, we have to concentrate on insulin.â
When Kim left the room later in the afternoon, Lena had gained a basic understanding of her routine. âI wonât be able to do anything but testing and taking shots,â she pouted. âIâll never get to have fun anymore.â
âYes, you will,â Rachel said. âBecause, as happens with dancing, youâll get faster at testing, injecting and managing your supplies.â
âThere is one more thing we need to talk about.â Garrett took a chair at the side of the bed. âCaroline and Ford reassured the other kids at the ranch that you were getting better and the doctors were taking care of you. The question is, do you want them to know you have diabetes? We could explain what that means, kind of prepare them for the fact that youâll be testing and taking injections. Itâs your decision but, in my opinion, that would be easiest.â
Lena let her head rest against the pillow, and tears seeped from underneath her closed eyelids. âItâs not enough to have to deal with this. I have to be embarrassed in front of everyone, too.â
âNobody will care, Lena.â Justino took her hand. âThey wonât think different of you.â
Rachel nodded. âEverybody has limitations. Garrett canât dance.â
âHey, I can do a nice two-step. Itâs just that salsa thing I donât get.â
âI canât sing,â Rachel continued, ignoring him. âMuch as I would enjoy it, my voice croaks like a frog. Your limitation is that you have to manage your blood sugar because your body wonât do it automatically. Thatâs all. Itâs really a simple problem, and not the worst one you could have. Youâre a strong girl who can handle this well if she puts her mind to it.â
The room was quiet for a few minutes while Lena wrestled with the new facts of her life. Rachel found herself gazing at Garrett but shifted her focus when he glanced in her direction. The less contact between them, the easier it would be to let whatever wanted to develop die.
âI guess youâd better tell them,â Lena said finally, with a sigh. âIf they donât want to be around me, at least Iâll know why.â
âGood choice.â Garrett patted her shoulder. âEverybody has been worried about you, so hearing the truth will comfort them. And I bet youâll find your friendships are the same as before. Youâre no differentâyou just have a few extra things to consider.â
Rachel considered that assessment too optimistic, but decided not to put a damper on the moment. âYouâll regain your balance,â she assured the girl. âThere are lots of professional athletes and Hollywood stars who live successfully with diabetes. You can, too.â
A nurse knocked on the door and then entered, carrying a food tray. âDinnertime,â she said. âDo try to eat as much as you can.â
Garrett got to his feet. âWeâll leave you alone for a few minutes. Then we have to head back to the Circle M, Justino. Weâve been gone all day.â
Out in the hall, he gazed at the papers in his hand. âLenaâs right. This reminds me of chemistry class, where your grade depends on doing the lab exactly according to the instructions. Only itâs not just a grade, itâs her life.â
Rachel hardened her heart against his concern. âAs I said yesterday, youâre taking on a formidable task. Are you sure Lena doesnât have family who could supervise her?â
âIâm sure. Caroline checked her records at the office. Thereâs no one listed in the paperwork.â
She shook her head. âThen, for better or worse, youâre going to have to master the information and use it. The more you understand, the less likely youâll be to make a mistake.â
He stared at her with wide eyes. âWhat kind of mistakes?â
âIf she takes too much insulin, then sheâll have to eat something to get sugar into her system. If she doesnât take enough, sheâll have to test her blood and adjust the next dose. Diabetes isnât an instantaneous problemâitâs a daily, weekly process of balance. With practice, you both should get used to the routine. How much longer does the ranch camp last?â
âAbout a month.â
âSo Lena has a month to absorb this process before sheâll have to take care of herself without help. Itâs not much time.â
âBut itâs all we get.â He blew out a deep breath. âI have a feeling weâll be bothering you a lot once Lena leaves the hospital.â
âIn that case...â She reached into her purse and brought out a few of the business cards she had ordered. âThis is the number. Take enough cards to put in various places you might call fromâthe kitchen, the place Lena sleeps, the barn, even. And keep your cell phone close by.â
âOur cell reception is sketchy out on the ranch, but we have landlines in all those places you mentioned, so I should be able to get in touch.â His mouth relaxed into a smile. âThanks for your help.â
The jump in her pulse as their eyes met was a reminder of why she should keep Garrett Marshall at a distance. She was just too susceptible to his charm. âNo problem. Thatâs what Iâm in Bisons Creek to do.â
There was a moment of silence, as he absorbed what sheâd said. âRight. Youâre the town doctor. Itâs your job.â Then he leaned through the doorway into Lenaâs room. âWeâd better hit the road, Justino. Donât want to miss dinner again. Lena, we will see you tomorrow morning. Have a good night.â
With the boy dragging reluctantly behind him, Garrett headed toward the elevator, giving Rachel a two-fingered salute off his hat brim as he passed.
Rachel realized sheâd hurt his feelings, but what else could she do? He imagined possibilities where she saw only obstacles, and encouraging him would be unkind. She was absolutely convinced they would both be better off never letting anything emotional develop between them. Garrett would understand one day. If she just held firm.
She went in and sat with Lena for a little while, encouraged to note that sheâd regained some appetite and had eaten a good portion of her dinner. Soon enough, though, texts to and from Justino were taking most of the girlâs attention, so Rachel stood up from the chair by the bed. âIâll leave for the night. But Iâll stop by tomorrow to check on how youâre getting along.â
Lena gave her a sweet smile. âThank you for being here. It helps to have you and Mr. Garrett to explain things.â
âIâm glad. Weâll do what we can to make this new life as easy as possible for you. Youâre old enough to be able to take care of yourselfâyou just have to learn how.â
Her phone buzzed again, but Lena didnât immediately read the text. âMy dad expects me to take care of my brothers when Iâm home.â
âWeâll work on your schedule so thatâs possible. And maybe we can get your dad to recognize the challenges youâre facing so heâll lighten your load.â
But Lena shook her head. âThat will never happen.â Another buzz on her phone distracted her. âNight,â she said, and shifted her focus.
âGood night.â
After leaving the hospital, Rachel stopped by the grocery store in Buffalo so she could stock the refrigerator and pantry in her new kitchen. The drive home showed her a breathtaking sunset as the clouds streaking the western sky glowed red and gold over the peaks of the Big Horn Mountains. Purple twilight shadowed the rolling plains at the base of the mountain range, adding to the rich palette of colors.
Coming back to Wyoming was a terrific choice. All the years away, sheâd missed the spectacular views in her home state.
As long as she kept her distance from Garrett Marshall.
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