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Edge of Hunger
Huh. As if he wanted to go back to the way heâd been before coming to the mountains. Thanks, but no thanks. He was done with living on the edge. Done watching his back 24-7. The constant strain of fighting his way through each day had worn him down and he had no desire to ever return.
Grabbing his jeans from the floor, Ian navigated through the dark rooms of his apartment, hoping it wasnât his brotherâ¦or Kendra. Heâd left her a message earlier, just wanting to check on her, after the whacked-out stuff Molly Stratton had said that afternoon.
âJesus, give me a goddamn minute!â he called out when the knocking grew louder, impatient and strong. Hitching his jeans up over his hips, he closed a few but tons as he reached for the door, pulling it open.
And there she was. Little Miss Molly.
Holy shit. What had been a serious hard-on turned into a burning lead pipe in his jeans, curving high to his left, so that the partly closed denim only just managed to keep him from flashing her his goods.
She still wore her jeans, but the white shirt had been replaced with a soft sage-colored T-shirt. Her braless nipples pressed against the thin cotton, thick and tempting, like hard little berries that he wanted to roll around on his tongue. Ian stared, unable to believe his eyes, wondering for a moment if he was still somehow trapped within the dream.
The silence stretched out, punctuated only by their soughing breaths, until he finally took a step forward. His brain justified moving closer to her as an intimidation tactic, but his cock knew better. He just wanted to be near her. Wanted to watch the soft flush bloom across her fair complexion. Wanted that warm honey scent of her skin in his head. She blinked up at him, pulling that full lower lip through her small white teeth, and his patience snapped. âHow the hell did you find me?â
âI asked around.â He struggled to focus on her words and not the husky sound of her voice that seemed to roll down his spine, or the sleep-rumpled look on her freshly washed faceâbut it was impossible. âA teenager down at the gas station told me you were staying here while you finish your house.â
He ripped his gaze away from the curve of her mouth to glare into those big brown eyes, hazy and soft beneath the glowing moonlight. âParker needs to learn to keep his mouth shut,â he muttered in a quiet rasp.
Her mouth twisted. âI think he thought I was in trouble, so please donât be angry with him.â
His eyes narrowed. âWhy?â
She blinked, startled by his tone. âWhat?â
âWhy did he think you were in trouble?â
âOh.â Her gaze slid away from his, focusing on his chest, which was bare. He watched, seeing the moment when she realized where she was staringâ¦and the heat crept back up across that flawless skin. But she didnât look away, and the heat spread into her eyes, the smoldering burn there slamming down into his already aching erection, making him wince. He wanted to rearrange himself, but didnât want to draw that luminous gaze any lower. Thatâd be too much.
âMolly!â he snapped, the harshness of his tone making her jump. He snagged that startled gaze as it flew up and growled, âWhy did Parker think you were in trouble?â
âOh, sorry,â she mumbled. This time she didnât look away from his face, keeping her eyes above his broad shoulders, and he almost grinned. âI wasâ¦um, upset, when I talked to him a little while ago. But Iâm okay now.â
âUpset how?â he demanded, grabbing her chin. He tilted her face into the soft stream of light barely reaching them from the streetlight down on the corner, and could see the sticky trail of tears that had dried on her skin. âYou were crying,â he said in an odd monotone. âDid someone hurt you?â
âNo,â she whispered, shaking her head, the soft, silken ends of her hair brushing against his wrist. âI was justâ¦emotional. But Iâm not hurt.â
He curved his hand around the back of her skull, and made a fist in her hair, pulling her head back so that he could stare down into those deep brown eyes. Her hair was soft, so damn soft. He just wanted to rub his face in it. Feel it on his skin, on his body. Wanted it wrapped around his fist as he made her do things good girls like her never did; which was why he always steered clear of them. Heâd realized long ago that he couldnât do the pretty when it came to sex. His urges ran too dark, too raw, too primitive for the likes of soft women. Hell, just look at the sick stuff heâd been fantasizing about in his sleep!
She claimed she wasnât hurt, but he refused to think about how heâd beenâ¦hurting her in his dream. Fucking her to within an inch of her life on the hard forest floor, sinking his goddamn teeth into the fragile column of her throat.
Drinking her blood.
Hunger clawed at his insides with vicious insistence while he slowly looked her over, feature by feature, and he knew the time for retreat when it came. âIf nothingâs wrong, then why the hell are you here?â he grated.
She trembled, and he didnât know if it was from his look or the harsh sound of his voice. âIâm sorry for barging in on you, but I wanted toâ¦to check on you. I wasâ¦worried.â
Sheâd been worried about him? Something scary and soft shivered through his insides at her strange words, and he let go of her, refusing to acknowledge the pleasure he got out of just touching her, feeling her warm curls sift through his fingers as he pulled away. âWhy would you be worried about me?â
She rolled her lips inward, brown gaze zinging from his face, to the hard bulge of his biceps, and back to his chest again, the smooth curve of her cheeks turning red. Her arms wrapped around her middle, as though she was holding herself together. âBecause I felt it.â
Leaning against the doorjamb, Ian crossed his own arms and glared at her. âFelt what?â
Her lids lowered, shielding her gaze from him. âYour dream,â she said thickly.
Something inside his gut clenched so hard, he felt the tremor slam through his body like a physical blow. âWhat the hell are you talking about?â
Her gaze flicked up to his. âYouâ¦you did something to me.â
Shock gripped him and he uncrossed his arms, his hands fisting at his sides. For a long, tense moment, he stared her down. The energy in him was pumping, making him feel wired, on edge, crawling up his spine, curling around the backs of his ears. He tried to keep it together, but hell, he was creeping himself out. No wonder she was looking at him as if he was some sort of monster from the deep, dark lagoon.
Hell, for all he knew, he was.
Ian worked his jaw, aware that he had to scrape the words out of his throat. âWhat did you say?â
âYou did something to me. Inâ¦the dream.â She wet her lips, her blush visible even in the hazy moonlight coming from above, shining around the pale wash of her hair like a halo, making her glow. She lookedâ¦soft, like something warm and sweet that you just wanted to wrap yourself around; that you wanted to feel melt over you like a warm summer rain. A sweet piece of candy that you left on your tongue to savor, to enjoy as its flavor trickled down your throat. All sunshine and smiles. Things he didnât wantâthings he sure as hell didnât deserve.
She looked ethereal, surrealâ¦something too good for him to touch, even if she was out of her goddamn mind.
Yeah, and youâre so together, Buchanan. A rock. Just a grounded kind of guy.
He ignored the sarcastic asshole living in his head, and tried to get his mind around what she was saying. Another scam? That had to be it. She was messing with his mind, though God only knew why. What could she want from him? He had nothing to give. Nothing but a screwed-up past and a questionable future. If it was a con, he couldnât imagine what she hoped to get from it.
As if reading his thoughts, she whispered, âIâm not making this up. And this time, I can prove it to you, Ian.â
He knew he was trying to intimidate her, knew it made him an ass, but he did it anyway. âAnd what was I doing in your dream, baby? Did I have you tied to my bed, making you beg for it?â He gave a gruff laugh, lifting his brows. âCome on, Molly. Tell me. If anything else, this should prove to be some pretty entertaining bullshit.â
Her mouth trembled, cheeks fiery and warm, eyes glassy and wild with a sheen of moisture, but he knew she wasnât going to cry. No, she wasâ¦turned on, he thought with a sharp, cracking jolt of realization that slammed through him. His words had aroused her as much as they had him.
He watched her head shake from side to side, heard a low, trembling ânoâ whisper past her pink mouth. His eyes narrowed as he studied her, and it hit him that she looked like a woman whoâd just rolled out of bed with a lover. Something aggressive and violent twisted in his stomach. Had she gone out and found some jerk-off to nail tonight, while heâd been alone in his bed, dreaming about her?
âIt didnât happen like that.â Her words came in a rush, and she slumped against the door frame, her body melting against the weathered wood as if she needed it to keep her upright. But her eyes changed, filling with an inner strength that aroused him even more than her shivering innocence, if that was possible.
He wanted to demand who sheâd been with but heard himself say, âYeah? Then just what did I do to you in this dream, Miss Stratton?â He wanted to shake her up, throw her off balance, the same way sheâd done to him. âThereâs no way in hell Iâd get you beneath me and not fuck you. Not-a-chance-in-hell,â he ground out.
âYou did,â she breathed softly, the wild look taking her eyes again. âYouâ¦we had sex,â she said in a whispery little rush. âButâ¦â
âYeah? Spit it out, honey.â He grinned and gave her a crude look, letting his inner asshole free. âIâm dying of curiosity here.â
She trembled, hugging herself tighter, her mouth quivering, eyes bright and wide as she stared up at him. She blinked. Then swallowed. âYou bit me, Ian.â
He froze, locked into place, while the floor fell out from beneath him. âWhat did you just say?â
She swallowed again, trembling like a leaf, lifting one hand to press her fingers against the left side of her neck, beneath the fall of her hair. âYou bit meâ¦and I canâ¦I can still feel the marks.â
Ian watched, trapped within a thick, oppressive daze, as she slowly pulled her hand away, turning her fingers for him to see. And there, glistening on Molly Strattonâs pale little fingertips was a dark, crimson smear of blood.
CHAPTER FOUR
MOLLYâS HEART POUNDED to a painful beat as she watched Ian come closer, the movement of his body predatory and primal, like an animalâs. He moved in a way that was too natural for a human male, too elemental, all that power and shocking intensity pulsing from him in slow, heated waves that made her want to shiver and melt all at once. She saw his muscles shift beneath the burnished silk of his skin, almost too gracefully for such a big man, as if strength came to him too easily, without effort and dangerously smooth. It reminded her of the way heâd moved over her in the dream.
He reached toward her with one large hand, the callused tips of his fingers scraping her skin, and moved the fall of her hair back from the side of her throat. The second he found the bite marks heâd made, his eyes flared into a hot, wicked blue, then narrowed, staringâ¦unblinking. His breath surged between his slightly parted lips with a rough, uneven cadence.
She wet her bottom lip with the tip of her tongue, a wave of chill bumps spreading over the sensitized surface of her body, while inside, chaos reigned. Her heart fluttered wildly like a trapped bird that might burst from her chest with her next breath, the sound of her pulse roaring in her ears like the midnight break of surf against craggy, weatherworn cliffs. The subconscious landscape of her emotions was a dark, gothic setting, complete with smoke-gray skies and thunderous cracks of lightning rumbling like ominous bellows in the distance.
All you need is Shelleyâs Frankenstein lurking in the shadows to make you feel right at home.
She shook off the whimsical thought, wishing heâd just say something.
âUnbelievable,â he finally breathed out in a low, stifled rasp. Molly watched the word as it formed on his lips, mesmerized by the shape of his mouth, the texture and hue, something inside of her coming a little undone by the salty, sweet scent of his breath. It sat on her palate like the promise of something forbidden and sweet, like a sin. Pure, perfect temptation. His fingers slid farther beneath her hair, curving around the back of her head, and she stole another quick look up at his eyes to find him watching her, his stare as hot as it was intensely blue.
Oh, God, she silently moaned, while her voice remained frozen, locked inside the prison of her throat.
His gaze moved over her face as if she was something heâd never seen before. Like Adam discovering Eve, he stared at her as though she were some foreign creature. A revelation. A curse. Something he should fear. Something that could destroy him.
âWhat do you want from me?â he ground out through teeth that were clenched in confusion and some indefinable emotion, his fingers tightening the slightest fraction in her hair. âHow the fuck did this happen?â
âIâ¦I donât know.â Scraping the confession out of a dry throat, Molly became aware of tiny pinpricks of sensation swirling through her system. She could feel its rush through her blood, behind her eyes, pulsing like tender heat in her lobes, against the backs of her knees. Desire, unfathomable and unwanted, and completely inexplicable, considering the circumstances. But there all the same. She couldnât deny, or ignore, its existence, no matter how badly she wanted to. She felt betrayed by the sheer depth of her reaction, as if lust had mounted a revolt against her common sense.
The sultry summer breeze blew harder, and his scent surrounded her, engulfed her, making her dizzy⦠making her want. His hand shifted again, slipping lower, curving around the back of her neck, and his skin was too hot, burning her flesh. So alive and warm and impossibly male. She blinked, and suddenly his body was even closer. So close now that his forehead nearly touched hers, their breath soughing together in a hectic, frenzied rush. âNo more games. I want an answer, and I want it now. How did this happen?â
âIâ¦I have no idea.â She could tell from his grim expression that he didnât believe her, and the words rushed up from inside of her like a gasping, swelling burst of frustration and fear. âI swear, Ian. I have no idea how it happened. Thatâs why I came here. I was worried. I needed to see that you were okay.â
âTo see that Iâm okay?â he growled, lashes so long and thick they cast shadows against his skin. âChrist, woman. Iâm not the one who almost had their fucking throat ripped out.â
A police car came roaring around the corner in the next instant, siren blaring as it sped past the weathered apartment building and into the night. They both jumped, flinching from the jarring screech of the sirenâs wail.
Pulling away from her, Ian pushed one rugged hand back through his damp hair, the muscles in his arm and chest coiling and flexing with the action, drawing her eye. âI need a cigarette,â he muttered, turning and disappearing into the darkness behind him. He didnât slam the door in her face, so Molly assumed she wasnât being told to leave. He moved deeper into the shadows of the apartment and she followed, pulling the door shut behind her.
Without the light from the street, darkness blanketed the room. The loss of sight made her other senses sharper, the panting sound of her breath filling her ears, the surface of her body so sensitive, it was as if she could feel the shadows against her skin. They slipped over her flesh like tiny, featherlight touches of a fingertip, stroking her cheekbones, her chin, the line of her throat.
Just stay calm. Donât freak. And for Godâs sake, donât start crying again. Heâll think youâre out of your mind. Not that he doesnât think that already.
Taking a deep, trembling breath, Molly squinted against the darkness, unsure of where to walk, until a low glow of light spilled into the murky gloom from a doorway on the far side of the room. Following the light, she found him facing her, one powerful shoulder braced against the far wall beside a window in the small kitchen, head lowered as he lifted his arms to light the cigarette perched between his lips. Heâd switched on a small light that shone over the sink, the muted glow too weak to reach the shadowed corners, casting him in a hazy glow of gold.
Slanting a curious look in her direction, he spoke in a graveled, hesitant rumble. âWhy did you scream my name at the end? Did I hurt you?â
She moved cautiously into the kitchen and collapsed into one of the pine chairs beside a small table, wishing sheâd pulled on something heavier. The chill of the air conditioner seeped through her thin shirt, freezing her to the bone, while Ian stood there half-dressed, his body vital and big, covered with a light sheen of sweat, as if impervious to the cold. âNo.â
âThen why the scream?â he demanded, taking a long draw off the gleaming cigarette, the details of the room lost beneath the force of his presence. She had the feeling she could have been surrounded by ravenous predators and still have remained oblivious to the danger, her entire focus centered on the hard, beautiful bulk of Ian Buchanan.
âAnswer me.â The harshness of his gritty tone made her flinch. The soft glow of light glinted off the broad width of his shoulders, his skin gleaming like bunched satin, and yet, he was completely untouchable. Like a wild, caged animal. Beautiful, but deadly.
Molly looked away and drew an unsteady breath. âI didnât wantâ¦â
âWhat?â he snapped, the word lashing with whipcord strength.
A self-conscious shrug rolled across her shoulders, her eyes still focused on a distant patch of his kitchen floor. âI didnât want you toâ¦leave me there alone.â The confession slipped from her lips without any direction from her brain, startling and unintended. She wanted to snatch back the telling, vulnerable words, but it was too late. He was already absorbing them, working them over in his mind, that dark blue gaze zeroed in on her with ruthless, uncompromising intensity when she sneaked a quick peek at him from beneath her lashes.
âTell me what you remember.â
She flushed, keenly aware of the heat suddenly rising up beneath her skin, burning in her cheeks. Her tongue felt thick in her mouth, every part of her oversensitized, as if she were experiencing everything too keenly. The coolness of the air. The stuttering speed of her pulse. The press of that beautiful blue gaze, the mesmerizing color probably the envy of every woman heâd ever known.
âMolly!â he snapped again.
The words jerked from her lips in rapid succession, beyond her control. âWe were in a forest. It was night. You wereâ¦different.â
A rough, humorless laugh rumbled up from his throat, and he took another deep pull on the cigarette, his silence making her ramble with the need to fill the uncomfortable space. âWe had sex, but youâ¦you didnâtâ¦â
Her voice faltered, and in a graveled tone, he said, âCome?â
âYes.â She shivered, her body clenching with remembered sensation. It had been unlike anything sheâd ever known, being under him, consumed by him.
âBelieve me,â he grimaced, the barest hint of a wry edge to his words, âI know.â
Her gaze flickered briefly to the immodest bulge in his jeans, and she wanted to ask whyâwhy he hadnât allowed himself release when inside of herâbut couldnât, suddenly afraid of what he might say. Heâd seemed to enjoy what had happened between them, but she knew men were fickle creatures, not to be trusted with emotional issues. His words, if delivered cruelly, could cut her to the quick, and she was already feeling too raw, the defenses sheâd spent so many years building suddenly seeming frail and unstable. She didnât know him well enough to trust him. Hell, she didnât know him at all.
And yet, for some inexplicable reason, she felt perfectly safe, alone there with him in the middle of the night, with nothing but the quiet stillness for company. Those storm-dark eyes moved over her face, lingering over her individual features. Then he lowered his head, reaching out toward the ashtray perched on the edge of the kitchen counter. She knew if she hadnât been watching him so closely, she would have missed it, that bleak shadow of fear that crept over the rugged angles of his profile. He slanted a sharp look in her direction when her breath sucked in on a gasp, and for a single instant, she could have sworn she heard his raspy voice in her head. Heard the unspoken question he was too afraid to ask.
âNo,â she whispered, her body trembling with a low vibration.
He ground out the cigarette in the stainless steel ashtray and turned toward her, feet braced apart in an aggressive stance, powerful arms crossed over his broad chest. âNo what?â
She rolled her lips together. âYouâre not evil.â
He grunted in response, distracted, and began pacing the width of the room. She watched his bare feet against the faded linoleum, long and dark, but as perfectly proportioned as the rest of him. Her gaze traveled up the length of his body, over the hardness of his thighs, the corrugated stretch of his abdomen, and he raised his arms, shoving his fingers back through the rumpled mass of his hair. She could do nothing but stare at the bulging power of his biceps with wide-eyed fascination. He was so perfectly sculpted, it was as if a master artisan had cut him from marble like David, and the gods had breathed life into him.
But he was no angel.
And yetâ¦he wasnât a devil, either.
âI mean it, Ian. Youâre not evil, no matter how⦠physical your dreams might be.â
âYeah, and how can you be so sure? You donât know me. Donât know what Iâm capable of. Donât know what I dream about doing to the women in my bed.â He stopped pacing, turning his head to look at her, eyes sharp and dark, so blue they looked black. âOr maybe you do.â
She struggled to ignore the surge of lust that poured through her, thick and warm in her veins, but it wasnât easy. Not with him prowling around, wearing nothing more than those barely buttoned faded Leviâs. She could see the dark silky trail of hair slipping down into the shadowed V of his open fly, and a wave of hunger rolled through her so sharp and sweet and strong that she went light-headed, forced to lean her upper body against the table for support.
The corner of his mouth twitchedâsuch a slight fraction of movement, she knew she would have missed it if she hadnât been staring so intently.
Crap. He knew.
This was bad. She was already in over her head, and getting deeper with every moment she spent up on this damn mountain. But she owed it to Elaina. Dammit, she owed it to herself. She wasnât going to screw up. Not this time around. She had a chance for redemption, to make a difference, and she was going to grab hold of it, even if it killed her.
Which seems a likely possibility, her conscience muttered.
He moved toward her, stalking closer until he stood in front of her knees, his feet braced outside of her own, staring down at her. Leaning forward, he braced his right hand on the table at her side, caging her in. âI can still taste your blood in my mouth,â he rasped, his gaze flicking over her face, lingering on the swell of her lower lip. âThis kind of shit isnât normal.â