A Hidden Life and Other Poems

A BOOK OF DREAMS

PART II

1.

Lord of the world's undying youth,  What joys are in thy might!What beauties of the inner truth,  And of the outer sight!And when the heart is dim and sad,  Too weak for wisdom's beam,Thou sometimes makest it right glad  With but a childish dream.* * * * *Lo! I will dream this windy day;  No sunny spot is bare;Dull vapours, in uncomely play,  Are weltering through the air.If I throw wide my windowed breast  To all the blasts that blow,My soul will rival in unrest  Those tree-tops—how they go!But I will dream like any child;  For, lo! a mighty swan,With radiant plumage undented,  And folded airy van,With serpent neck all proudly bent,  And stroke of swarthy oar,Dreams on to me, by sea-maids sent  Over the billows hoar.For in a wave-worn rock I lie;  Outside, the waters foam;And echoes of old storms go by  Within my sea-built dome.The waters, half the gloomy way,  Beneath its arches come;Throbbing to unseen billows' play,  The green gulfs waver dumb.A dawning twilight through the cave  In moony gleams doth go,Half from the swan above the wave,  Half from the swan below.Close to my feet she gently drifts,  Among the glistening things;She stoops her crowny head, and lifts  White shoulders of her wings.Oh! earth is rich with many a nest,  Deep, soft, and ever new,Pure, delicate, and full of rest;  But dearest there are two.I would not tell them but to minds  That are as white as they;If others hear, of other kinds,  I wish them far away.Upon the neck, between the wings,  Of a white, sailing swan,A flaky bed of shelterings—  There you will find the one.The other—well, it will not out,  Nor need I tell it you;I've told you one, and need you doubt,  When there are only two?Fulfil old dreams, O splendid bird,  Me o'er the waters bear;Sure never ocean's face was stirred  By any ship so fair!Sure never whiteness found a dress,  Upon the earth to go,So true, profound, and rich, unless  It was the falling snow.With quick short flutter of each wing  Half-spread, and stooping crown,She calls me; and with one glad spring  I nestle in the down.Plunges the bark, then bounds aloft,  With lessening dip and rise.Round curves her neck with motion soft—  Sure those are woman's eyes.One stroke unseen, with oary feet,  One stroke—away she sweeps;Over the waters pale we fleet,  Suspended in the deeps.And round the sheltering rock, and lo!  The tumbling, weltering sea!On to the west, away we go, Over the waters free!Her motions moulded to the wave,  Her billowy neck thrown back,With slow strong pulse, stately and grave,  She cleaves a rippling track.And up the mounting wave we glide,  With climbing sweeping blow;And down the steep, far-sloping side,  To flowing vales below.I hear the murmur of the deep  In countless ripples pass,Like talking children in their sleep,  Like winds in reedy grass.And through some ruffled feathers, I  The glassy rolling mark,With which the waves eternally  Roll on from dawn to dark.The night is blue, the stars aglow;  In solemn peace o'erheadThe archless depth of heaven; below,  The murmuring, heaving bed.A thickened night, it heaveth on,  A fallen earthly sky;The shadows of its stars alone  Are left to know it by.What faints across the lifted loop Of cloud-veil upward cast?With sea-veiled limbs, a sleeping group  Of Nereids dreaming past.Swim on, my boat; who knows but I,  Ere night sinks to her grave,May see in splendour pale float by  The Venus of the wave?

2.

In the night, round a lady dreaming—  A queen among the dreams—Came the silent sunset streaming,  Mixed with the voice of streams.A silver fountain springing  Blossoms in molten gold;And the airs of the birds float ringing  Through harmonies manifold.She lies in a watered valley;  Her garden melts awayThrough foot-path and curving alley  Into the wild wood grey.And the green of the vale goes creeping  To the feet of the rugged hills,Where the moveless rocks are keeping  The homes of the wandering rills.And the hues of the flowers grow deeper,  Till they dye her very brain;And their scents, like the soul of a sleeper,  Wander and waver and rain.For dreams have a wealth of glory  That daylight cannot give:Ah God! make the hope a story—  Bid the dreams arise and live.She lay and gazed at the flowers,  Till her soul's own garden smiledWith blossom-o'ershaded bowers,  Great colours and splendours wild.And her heart filled up with gladness,  Till it could only ache;And it turned aside to sadness,  As if for pity's sake.And a fog came o'er the meadows,  And the rich hues fainting lay;Came from the woods the shadows,  Came from the rocks the grey.And the sunset thither had vanished,  Where the sunsets always go;And the sounds of the stream were banished,  As if slain by frost and snow.And the flowers paled fast and faster,  And they crumbled fold on fold,Till they looked like the stained plaster  Of a cornice in ruin old.And they blackened and shrunk together,  As if scorched by the breath of flame,With a sad perplexity whether  They were or were not the same.And she saw herself still lying,  And smiling on, the while;And the smile, instead of dying,  Was fixed in an idiot smile.And the lady arose in sorrow  Out of her sleep's dark stream;But her dream made dark the morrow,  And she told me the haunting dream.Alas! dear lady, I know it,  The dream that all is a dream;The joy with the doubt below it  That the bright things only seem.One moment of sad commotion,  And one of doubt's withering rule—And the great wave-pulsing ocean  Is only a gathered pool.And the flowers are spots of painting,  Of lifeless staring hue;Though your heart is sick to fainting,  They say not a word to you.And the birds know nought of gladness,  They are only song-machines;And a man is a skilful madness,  And the women pictured queens.And fiercely we dig the fountain,  To know the water true;And we climb the crest of the mountain,  To part it from the blue.But we look too far before us  For that which is more than nigh;Though the sky is lofty o'er us,  We are always in the sky.And the fog, o'er the roses that creepeth,  Steams from the unknown sea,In the dark of the soul that sleepeth,  And sigheth constantly,Because o'er the face of its waters  The breathing hath not gone;And instead of glad sons and daughters,  Wild things are moaning on.When the heart knows well the Father,  The eyes will be always day;But now they grow dim the rather  That the light is more than they.Believe, amidst thy sorrows,  That the blight that swathes the earthIs only a shade that borrows  Life from thy spirit's dearth.God's heart is the fount of beauty;  Thy heart is its visible well;If it vanish, do thou thy duty,  That necromantic spell;And thy heart to the Father crying  Will fill with waters deep;Thine eyes may say, Beauty is dying;  But thy spirit, She goes to sleep.And I fear not, thy fair soul ever  Will smile as thy image smiled;It had fled with a sudden shiver,  And thy body lay beguiled.Let the flowers and thy beauty perish;  Let them go to the ancient dust.But the hopes that the children cherish,  They are the Father's trust.

3.

A great church in an empty square,  A place of echoing tones;Feet pass not oft enough to wear  The grass between the stones.The jarring sounds that haunt its gates,  Like distant thunders boom;The boding heart half-listening waits,  As for a coming doom.The door stands wide, the church is bare,  Oh, horror, ghastly, sore!A gulf of death, with hideous stare,  Yawns in the earthen floor;As if the ground had sunk away  Into a void below:Its shapeless sides of dark-hued clay  Hang ready aye to go.I am myself a horrid grave,  My very heart turns grey;This charnel-hole,—will no one save  And force my feet away?The changing dead are there, I know,  In terror ever new;Yet down the frightful slope I go,  That downward goeth too.Beneath the caverned floor I hie,  And seem, with anguish dull,To enter by the empty eye  Into a monstrous skull.Stumbling on what I dare not guess,  And wading through the gloom,Less deep the shades my eyes oppress,  I see the awful tomb.My steps have led me to a door,  With iron clenched and barred;Grim Death hides there a ghastlier store,  Great spider in his ward.The portals shake, the bars are bowed,  As if an earthy windThat never bore a leaf or cloud  Were pressing hard behind.They shake, they groan, they outward strain.  What sight, of dire dismayWill freeze its form upon my brain,  And turn it into clay?They shake, they groan, they bend, they crack;  The bars, the doors divide:A flood of glory at their back  Hath burst the portals wide.Flows in the light of vanished days,  The joy of long-set moons;The flood of radiance billowy plays,  In sweet-conflicting tunes.The gulf is filled with flashing tides,  An awful gulf no more;A maze of ferns clothes all its sides,  Of mosses all its floor.And, floating through the streams, appear  Such forms of beauty rare,As every aim at beauty here  Had found its would be there.I said: 'Tis well no hand came nigh,  To turn my steps astray;'Tis good we cannot choose but die,  That life may have its way.

4.

Before I sleep, some dreams draw nigh,  Which are not fancy mere;For sudden lights an inward eye,  And wondrous things appear.Thus, unawares, with vision wide,  A steep hill once I saw,In faint dream lights, which ever hide  Their fountain and their law.And up and down the hill reclined  A host of statues old;Such wondrous forms as you might find  Deep under ancient mould.They lay, wild scattered, all along,  And maimed as if in fight;But every one of all the throng  Was precious to the sight.Betwixt the night and hill they ranged,  In dead composure cast.As suddenly the dream was changed,  And all the wonder past.The hill remained; but what it bore  Was broken reedy stalks,Bent hither, thither, drooping o'er,  Like flowers o'er weedy walks.For each dim form of marble rare,  Bent a wind-broken reed;So hangs on autumn-field, long-bare, Some tall and straggling weed.The autumn night hung like a pall,  Hung mournfully and dead;And if a wind had waked at all,  It had but moaned and fled.

5.

I lay and dreamed. Of thought and sleep  Was born a heavenly joy:I dreamed of two who always keep  Me happy as a boy.I was with them. My heart-bells rung  With joy my heart above;Their present heaven my earth o'erhung,  And earth was glad with love.The dream grew troubled. Crowds went on,  And sought their varied ends;Till stream on stream, the crowds had gone,  And swept away my friends.I was alone. A miry road  I followed, all in vain;No well-known hill the landscape showed,  It was a wretched plain;Where mounds of rubbish, ugly pits,  And brick-fields scarred the globe;Those wastes where desolation sits  Without her ancient robe.A drizzling rain proclaimed the skies  As wretched as the earth;I wandered on, and weary sighs  Were all my lot was worth.When sudden, as I turned my way,  Burst in the ocean-waves:And lo! a blue wild-dancing bay  Fantastic rocks and caves!I wept with joy. Ah! sometimes so,  In common daylight grief,A beauty to the heart will go,  And bring the heart relief.And, wandering, reft of hope or friend,  If such a thing should be,One day we take the downward bend,  And lo, Eternity!I wept with joy, delicious tears,  Which dreams alone bestow;Until, mayhap, from out the years  We sleep, and further go.

6.

Now I will mould a dream, awake,  Which I, asleep, would dream;From all the forms of fancy take  One that shall also seem;Seem in my verse (if not my brain),  Which sometimes may rejoiceIn airy forms of Fancy's train,  Though nobler are my choice.Some truth o'er all the land may lie  In children's dreams at night;They do not build the charmed sky  That domes them with delight.And o'er the years that follow soon,  So all unlike the dreams,Wander their odours, gleams their moon,  And flow their winds and streams.Now I would dream that I awake  In scent of cool night air,Above me star-clouds close and break;  Beneath—where am I, where?A strange delight pervades my breast,  Of ancient pictures dim,Where fair forms on the waters rest,  Or in the breezes swim.I rest on arms as soft as strong,  Great arms of woman-mould;My head is pillowed whence a song,  In many a rippling fold,O'erfloods me from its bubbling spring:  A Titan goddess bearsMe, floating on her unseen wing,  Through gracious midnight airs.And I am borne o'er sleeping seas,  O'er murmuring ears of corn,Over the billowy tops of trees,  O'er roses pale till morn.Over the lake—ah! nearer float,  Down on the water's breast;Let me look deep, and gazing doat  On that white lily's nest.The harebell's bed, as o'er we pass,  Swings all its bells about;From waving blades of polished grass,  Flash moony splendours out.Old homes we brush in wooded glades;  No eyes at windows shine;For all true men and noble maids  Are out in dreams like mine.And foam-bell-kisses drift and break  From wind-waves of the SouthAgainst my brow and eyes awake,  And yet I see no mouth.Light laughter ripples down the air,  Light sighs float up below;And o'er me ever, radiant pair,  The Queen's great star-eyes go.And motion like a dreaming wave  Wafts me in gladness dimThrough air just cool enough to lave  With sense each conscious limb.But ah! the dream eludes the rhyme,  As dreams break free from sleep;The dream will keep its own free time,  In mazy float or sweep.And thought too keen for joy awakes,  As on the horizon far,A dead pale light the circle breaks,  But not a dawning star.No, there I cannot, dare not go;  Pale women wander there;With cold fire murderous eyeballs glow;  And children see despair.The joy has lost its dreamy zest;  I feel a pang of loss;My wandering hand o'er mounds of rest  Finds only mounds of moss.Beneath the bare night-stars I lie;  Cold winds are moaning past:Alas! the earth with grief will die,  The great earth is aghast.I look above—there dawns no face;  Around—no footsteps come;No voice inhabits this great space;  God knows, but keepeth dumb.I wake, and know that God is by,  And more than dreams will give;And that the hearts that moan and die,  Shall yet awake and live.

TO AURELIO SAFFI

To God and man be simply true:Do as thou hast been wont to do:Or, Of the old more in the new:Mean all the same when said to you.I love thee. Thou art calm and strong;Firm in the right, mild to the wrong;Thy heart, in every raging throng,A chamber shut for prayer and song.Defeat thou know'st not, canst not know;Only thy aims so lofty go,They need as long to root and growAs any mountain swathed in snow.Go on and prosper, holy friend.I, weak and ignorant, would lendA voice, thee, strong and wise, to sendProspering onward, without end.

SONNET

To A.M.D.

Methinks I see thee, lying calm and low,  Silent and dark within thy earthy bed;  Thy mighty hands, in which I trusted, dead,Resting, with thy long arms, from work or blow;And the night-robe, around thy tall form, flow  Down from the kingly face, and from the head,  Save by its thick dark curls, uncovered—My brother, dear from childhood, lying so!Not often since thou went'st, I think of thee,  (With inward cares and questionings oppressed);  And yet, ere long, I seek thee in thy rest,And bring thee home my heart, as full, as free,As sure that thou wilt take me tenderly,  As then when youth and nature made us blest.

A MEMORIAL OF AFRICA

I

Upon a rock, high on a mountain side,  Thousands of feet above the lake-sea's lip,  A rock in which old waters' rise and dip,Plunge and recoil, and backward eddying tideHad, age-long, worn, while races lived and died,  Involved channels, where the sea-weed's drip  Followed the ebb; and now earth-grasses sipFresh dews from heaven, whereby on earth they bide—  I sat and gazed southwards. A dry flowOf withering wind blew on my drooping strengthFrom o'er the awful desert's burning length.  Behind me piled, away and upward goGreat sweeps of savage mountains—up, away,Where panthers roam, and snow gleams all the day.

II

Ah, God! the world needs many hours to make;  Nor hast thou ceased the making of it yet,  But wilt be working on when Death hath setA new mound in some churchyard for my sake.On flow the centuries without a break.  Uprise the mountains, ages without let.  The mosses suck the rock's breast, rarely wet.Years more than past, the young earth yet will take.  But in the dumbness of the rolling time,No veil of silence will encompass me—Thou wilt not once forget, and let me be:  I easier think that thou, as I my rhyme,Wouldst rise, and with a tenderness sublimeUnfold a world, that I, thy child, might see.

A GIFT

My gift would find thee fast asleep,  And arise a dream in thee;A violet sky o'er the roll and sweep  Of a purple and pallid sea;And a crescent moon from my sky should creep  In the golden dream to thee.Thou shouldst lay thee down, and sadly list  To the wail of our cold birth-time;And build thee a temple, glory-kissed,  In the heart of the sunny clime;Its columns should rise in a music-mist,  And its roofs in a spirit-rhyme.Its pillars the solemn hills should bind  'Neath arches of starry deeps;Its floor the earth all veined and lined;  Its organ the ocean-sweeps;And, swung in the hands of the grey-robed wind,  Its censers the blossom-heaps.And 'tis almost done; for in this my rhyme,  Thanks to thy mirror-soul,Thou wilt see the mountains, and hear the chime  Of the waters after the roll;And the stars of my sky thy sky will climb,  And with heaven roof in the whole.

THE MAN OF SONGS

"Thou wanderest in the land of dreams,  O man of many songs;To thee the actual only seems—  No realm to thee belongs.""Seest thou those mountains in the east,  O man of ready aim?""'T is only vapours that thou seest,  In mountain form and name.""Nay, nay, I know them all too well,  Each ridge, and peak, and dome;In that cloud-land, in one high dell,  Nesteth my little home."

BETTER THINGS

Better to smell a violet,Than sip the careless wine;Better to list one music tone,Than watch the jewels' shine.Better to have the love of one,Than smiles like morning dew;Better to have a living seedThan flowers of every hue.Better to feel a love within,Than be lovely to the sight;Better a homely tendernessThan beauty's wild delight.Better to love than be beloved.Though lonely all the day;Better the fountain in the heart,Than the fountain by the way.Better a feeble love to God,Than for woman's love to pine;Better to have the making GodThan the woman made divine.Better be fed by mother's hand,Than eat alone at will;Better to trust in God, than say:My goods my storehouse fill.Better to be a little wiseThan learned overmuch;Better than high are lowly thoughts,For truthful thoughts are such.Better than thrill a listening crowd,Sit at a wise man's feet;But better teach a child, than toilTo make thyself complete.Better to walk the realm unseen,Than watch the hour's event;Better the smile of God alway,Than the voice of men's consent.Better to have a quiet griefThan a tumultuous joy;Better than manhood, age's face,If the heart be of a boy.Better the thanks of one dear heart,Than a nation's voice of praise;Better the twilight ere the dawn,Than yesterday's mid-blaze.Better a death when work is done,Than earth's most favoured birth;Better a child in God's great houseThan the king of all the earth.

THE JOURNEY

Hark, the rain is on my roof!Every sound drops through the darkOn my soul with dull reproof,Like a half-extinguished spark.I! alas, how am I here,In the midnight and alone?Caught within a net of fear!All my dreams of beauty gone!I will rise: I must go forth.Better face the hideous night,Better dare the unseen north,Than be still without the light!Black wind rushing round my brow,Sown with stinging points of rain!Place or time I know not now—I am here, and so is pain!I will leave the sleeping street,Hie me forth on darker roads.Ah! I cannot stay my feet,Onward, onward, something goads.I will take the mountain path,Beard the storm within its den,Know the worst of this dim wrath,Vexing thus the souls of men.Chasm 'neath chasm! rock piled on rock:Roots, and crumbling earth, and stones!Hark, the torrent's thundering shock!Hark, the swaying pine tree's groans!Ah, I faint, I fall, I die!Sink to nothingness away!—Lo, a streak upon the sky!Lo, the opening eye of day!

II

Mountain heights that lift their snowsO'er a valley green and low;And a winding path, that goesGuided by the river's flow;And a music rising ever,As of peace and low content,From the pebble-paven riverAs an odour upward sent.And a sighing of the stormFar away amid the hills,Like the humming of a swarmThat the summer forest fills;And a frequent fall of rainFrom a cloud with ragged weft;And a burst of wind amainFrom the mountain's sudden cleft.Then a night that hath a moon,Staining all the cloudy white;Sinking with a soundless tuneDeep into the spirit's night.Then a morning clear and soft,Amber on the purple hills;Warm high day of summer, oftCooled by wandering windy rills.Joy to travel thus along,With the universe around!I the centre of the throng;Every sight and every soundSpeeding with its burden laden,Speeding homewards to my soul!Mine the eye the stars are made in!I the heart of all this whole!

III

Hills retreat on either hand,Sinking down into the plain;Slowly through the level landGlides the river to the main.What is that before me, white,Gleaming through the dusky air?Dimmer in the gathering night;Still beheld, I know not where?Is it but a chalky ridge,Bared by many a trodden mark?Or a river-spanning bridge,Miles away into the dark?Or the foremost leaping wavesOf the everlasting sea,Where the Undivided lavesTime with its eternity?No, tis but an eye-made sight,In my brain a fancied gleam;Or a thousand things as white,Set in darkness, well might seem.There it wavers, shines, is gone;What it is I cannot tell;When the morning star hath shone,I shall see and know it well.Onward, onward through the night!Matters it I cannot see?I am moving in a might,Dwelling in the dark and me.Up or down, or here or there,I can never be alone;My own being tells me whereGod is as the Father known.

IV

Joy! O joy! the Eastern seaAnswers to the Eastern sky;Wide and featured gloriouslyWith swift billows bursting high.Nearer, nearer, oh! the sheenOn a thousand waves at once!Oh! the changing crowding green!Oh my beating heart's response!Down rejoicing to the strand,Where the sea-waves shore-ward lean,Curve their graceful heads, and standGleaming with ethereal green,Then in foam fall heavily—This is what I saw at night!Lo, a boat! I'll forth on thee,Dancing-floor for my delight.From the bay, wind-winged, we glance;Sea-winds seize me by the hair!What a terrible expanse!How the ocean tumbles there!I am helpless here afloat,For the wild waves know not me;Gladly would I change my boatFor the snow wings of the sea!Look below. Each watery whirlCast in beauty's living mould!Look above! Each feathery curlFaintly tinged with morning gold!—Oh, I tremble with the gushOf an everlasting youth!Love and fear together rush:I am free in God, the Truth!

PRAYER

We doubt the word that tells us: Ask,  And ye shall have your prayer;We turn our thoughts as to a task,  With will constrained and rare.And yet we have; these scanty prayers  Yield gold without alloy:O God! but he that trusts and dares  Must have a boundless joy.

REST

When round the earth the Father's hands  Have gently drawn the dark;Sent off the sun to fresher lands,  And curtained in the lark;'Tis sweet, all tired with glowing day,  To fade with faded light;To lie once more, the old weary way,  Upfolded in the night.A mother o'er the couch may bend,  And rose-leaf kisses heap:In soothing dreams with sleep they blend,  Till even in dreams we sleep.And, if we wake while night is dumb,  'Tis sweet to turn and say,It is an hour ere dawning come,  And I will sleep till day.

II

There is a dearer, warmer bed,  Where one all day may lie,Earth's bosom pillowing the head,  And let the world go by.Instead of mother's love-lit eyes,  The church's storied pane,All blank beneath cold starry skies,  Or sounding in the rain.The great world, shouting, forward fares:  This chamber, hid from none,Hides safe from all, for no one cares  For those whose work is done.Cheer thee, my heart, though tired and slow  An unknown grassy placeSomewhere on earth is waiting now  To rest thee from thy race.

III

There is a calmer than all calms,  A quiet more deep than death:A folding in the Father's palms,  A breathing in his breath;A rest made deeper by alarms  And stormy sounds combined:The child within its mother's arms  Sleeps sounder for the wind.There needs no curtained bed to hide  The world with all its wars,Nor grassy cover to divide  From sun and moon and starsA window open to the skies,  A sense of changeless life,With oft returning still surprise  Repels the sounds of strife.