Poems by Emily Dickinson, Third Series

Emily Dickinson

Poems by Emily Dickinson, Third Series

MABEL LOOMIS TODD    It's all I have to bring to-day,      This, and my heart beside,    This, and my heart, and all the fields,      And all the meadows wide.    Be sure you count, should I forget, —      Some one the sum could tell, —    This, and my heart, and all the bees      Which in the clover dwell.

PREFACE

The intellectual activity of Emily Dickinson was so great that a large and characteristic choice is still possible among her literary material, and this third volume of her verses is put forth in response to the repeated wish of the admirers of her peculiar genius. Much of Emily Dickinson's prose was rhythmic, —even rhymed, though frequently not set apart in lines.

Also many verses, written as such, were sent to friends in letters; these were published in 1894, in the volumes of her Letters. It has not been necessary, however, to include them in this Series, and all have been omitted, except three or four exceptionally strong ones, as "A Book," and "With Flowers."

There is internal evidence that many of the poems were simply spontaneous flashes of insight, apparently unrelated to outward circumstance. Others, however, had an obvious personal origin; for example, the verses "I had a Guinea golden," which seem to have been sent to some friend travelling in Europe, as a dainty reminder of letter-writing delinquencies. The surroundings in which any of Emily Dickinson's verses are known to have been written usually serve to explain them clearly; but in general the present volume is full of thoughts needing no interpretation to those who apprehend this scintillating spirit.

M. L. T.

AMHERST, October, 1896.

I. LIFE

POEMS

I.

REAL RICHES

'T is little I could care for pearls  Who own the ample sea;Or brooches, when the Emperor  With rubies pelteth me;Or gold, who am the Prince of Mines;  Or diamonds, when I seeA diadem to fit a dome  Continual crowning me.

II.

SUPERIORITY TO FATE

Superiority to fate  Is difficult to learn.'T is not conferred by any,  But possible to earnA pittance at a time,  Until, to her surprise,The soul with strict economy  Subsists till Paradise.

III.

HOPE

Hope is a subtle glutton;  He feeds upon the fair;And yet, inspected closely,  What abstinence is there!His is the halcyon table  That never seats but one,And whatsoever is consumed  The same amounts remain.

IV.

FORBIDDEN FRUIT

IForbidden fruit a flavor has  That lawful orchards mocks;How luscious lies the pea within  The pod that Duty locks!

V.

FORBIDDEN FRUIT

IIHeaven is what I cannot reach!  The apple on the tree,Provided it do hopeless hang,  That 'heaven' is, to me.The color on the cruising cloud,  The interdicted groundBehind the hill, the house behind, —  There Paradise is found!

VI.

A WORD

A word is deadWhen it is said,  Some say.I say it justBegins to live  That day.

VII

To venerate the simple days  Which lead the seasons by,Needs but to remember  That from you or meThey may take the trifle  Termed mortality!To invest existence with a stately air,Needs but to remember  That the acorn thereIs the egg of forests  For the upper air!

VIII.

LIFE'S TRADES

It's such a little thing to weep,  So short a thing to sigh;And yet by trades the size of these  We men and women die!

IX

Drowning is not so pitiful  As the attempt to rise.Three times, 't is said, a sinking man  Comes up to face the skies,And then declines forever  To that abhorred abodeWhere hope and he part company, —  For he is grasped of God.The Maker's cordial visage,  However good to see,Is shunned, we must admit it,  Like an adversity.

X

How still the bells in steeples stand,  Till, swollen with the sky,They leap upon their silver feet  In frantic melody!

XI

If the foolish call them 'flowers,'  Need the wiser tell?If the savans 'classify' them,  It is just as well!Those who read the Revelations  Must not criticiseThose who read the same edition  With beclouded eyes!Could we stand with that old Moses  Canaan denied, —Scan, like him, the stately landscape  On the other side, —Doubtless we should deem superfluous  Many sciencesNot pursued by learnèd angels  In scholastic skies!Low amid that glad Belles lettres  Grant that we may stand,Stars, amid profound Galaxies,  At that grand 'Right hand'!

XII.

A SYLLABLE

Could mortal lip divine  The undeveloped freightOf a delivered syllable,  'T would crumble with the weight.

XIII.

PARTING

My life closed twice before its close;  It yet remains to seeIf Immortality unveil  A third event to me,So huge, so hopeless to conceive,  As these that twice befell.Parting is all we know of heaven,  And all we need of hell.

XIV.

ASPIRATION

We never know how high we are  Till we are called to rise;And then, if we are true to plan,  Our statures touch the skies.The heroism we recite  Would be a daily thing,Did not ourselves the cubits warp  For fear to be a king.

XV.

THE INEVITABLE

While I was fearing it, it came,  But came with less of fear,Because that fearing it so long  Had almost made it dear.There is a fitting a dismay,  A fitting a despair.'Tis harder knowing it is due,  Than knowing it is here.The trying on the utmost,  The morning it is new,Is terribler than wearing it  A whole existence through.

XVI.

A BOOK

There is no frigate like a book  To take us lands away,Nor any coursers like a page  Of prancing poetry.This traverse may the poorest take  Without oppress of toll;How frugal is the chariot  That bears a human soul!

XVII

Who has not found the heaven below  Will fail of it above.God's residence is next to mine,  His furniture is love.

XVIII.

A PORTRAIT

A face devoid of love or grace,  A hateful, hard, successful face,A face with which a stone  Would feel as thoroughly at easeAs were they old acquaintances, —  First time together thrown.

XIX.

I HAD A GUINEA GOLDEN

I had a guinea golden;  I lost it in the sand,And though the sum was simple,  And pounds were in the land,Still had it such a value  Unto my frugal eye,That when I could not find it  I sat me down to sigh.I had a crimson robin  Who sang full many a day,But when the woods were painted  He, too, did fly away.Time brought me other robins, —  Their ballads were the same, —Still for my missing troubadour  I kept the 'house at hame.'I had a star in heaven;  One Pleiad was its name,And when I was not heeding  It wandered from the same.And though the skies are crowded,  And all the night ashine,I do not care about it,  Since none of them are mine.My story has a moral:  I have a missing friend, —Pleiad its name, and robin,  And guinea in the sand, —And when this mournful ditty,  Accompanied with tear,Shall meet the eye of traitor  In country far from here,Grant that repentance solemn  May seize upon his mind,And he no consolation  Beneath the sun may find.

NOTE. – This poem may have had, like many others, a personal origin. It is more than probable that it was sent to some friend travelling in Europe, a dainty reminder of letter-writing delinquencies.

XX.

SATURDAY AFTERNOON

From all the jails the boys and girls  Ecstatically leap, —Beloved, only afternoon  That prison doesn't keep.They storm the earth and stun the air,  A mob of solid bliss.Alas! that frowns could lie in wait  For such a foe as this!

XXI

Few get enough, – enough is one;  To that ethereal throngHave not each one of us the right  To stealthily belong?

XXII

Upon the gallows hung a wretch,  Too sullied for the hellTo which the law entitled him.  As nature's curtain fellThe one who bore him tottered in,  For this was woman's son.''T was all I had,' she stricken gasped;  Oh, what a livid boon!

XXIII.

THE LOST THOUGHT

I felt a clearing in my mind  As if my brain had split;I tried to match it, seam by seam,  But could not make them fit.The thought behind I strove to join  Unto the thought before,But sequence ravelled out of reach  Like balls upon a floor.

XXIV.

RETICENCE

The reticent volcano keeps  His never slumbering plan;Confided are his projects pink  To no precarious man.If nature will not tell the tale  Jehovah told to her,Can human nature not survive  Without a listener?Admonished by her buckled lips  Let every babbler be.The only secret people keep  Is Immortality.

XXV.

WITH FLOWERS

If recollecting were forgetting,  Then I remember not;And if forgetting, recollecting,  How near I had forgot!And if to miss were merry,  And if to mourn were gay,How very blithe the fingers  That gathered these to-day!

XXVI

The farthest thunder that I heard  Was nearer than the sky,And rumbles still, though torrid noons  Have lain their missiles by.The lightning that preceded it  Struck no one but myself,But I would not exchange the bolt  For all the rest of life.Indebtedness to oxygen  The chemist may repay,But not the obligation  To electricity.It founds the homes and decks the days,  And every clamor brightIs but the gleam concomitant  Of that waylaying light.The thought is quiet as a flake, —  A crash without a sound;How life's reverberation  Its explanation found!

XXVII

On the bleakness of my lot  Bloom I strove to raise.Late, my acre of a rock  Yielded grape and maize.Soil of flint if steadfast tilled  Will reward the hand;Seed of palm by Lybian sun  Fructified in sand.

XXVIII.

CONTRAST

A door just opened on a street —  I, lost, was passing by —An instant's width of warmth disclosed,  And wealth, and company.The door as sudden shut, and I,  I, lost, was passing by, —Lost doubly, but by contrast most,  Enlightening misery.

XXIX.

FRIENDS

Are friends delight or pain?  Could bounty but remainRiches were good.But if they only stayBolder to fly away,  Riches are sad.

XXX.

FIRE

Ashes denote that fire was;  Respect the grayest pileFor the departed creature's sake  That hovered there awhile.Fire exists the first in light,  And then consolidates, —Only the chemist can disclose  Into what carbonates.

XXXI.

A MAN

Fate slew him, but he did not drop;  She felled – he did not fall —Impaled him on her fiercest stakes —  He neutralized them all.She stung him, sapped his firm advance,  But, when her worst was done,And he, unmoved, regarded her,  Acknowledged him a man.

XXXII.

VENTURES

Finite to fail, but infinite to venture.  For the one ship that struts the shoreMany's the gallant, overwhelmed creature  Nodding in navies nevermore.

XXXIII.

GRIEFS

I measure every grief I meet  With analytic eyes;I wonder if it weighs like mine,  Or has an easier size.I wonder if they bore it long,  Or did it just begin?I could not tell the date of mine,  It feels so old a pain.I wonder if it hurts to live,  And if they have to try,And whether, could they choose between,  They would not rather die.I wonder if when years have piled —  Some thousands – on the causeOf early hurt, if such a lapse  Could give them any pause;Or would they go on aching still  Through centuries above,Enlightened to a larger pain  By contrast with the love.The grieved are many, I am told;  The reason deeper lies, —Death is but one and comes but once,  And only nails the eyes.There's grief of want, and grief of cold, —  A sort they call 'despair;'There's banishment from native eyes,  In sight of native air.And though I may not guess the kind  Correctly, yet to meA piercing comfort it affords  In passing Calvary,To note the fashions of the cross,  Of those that stand alone,Still fascinated to presume  That some are like my own.

XXXIV

I have a king who does not speak;So, wondering, thro' the hours meek  I trudge the day away,—Half glad when it is night and sleep,If, haply, thro' a dream to peep  In parlors shut by day.And if I do, when morning comes,It is as if a hundred drums  Did round my pillow roll,And shouts fill all my childish sky,And bells keep saying 'victory'  From steeples in my soul!And if I don't, the little BirdWithin the Orchard is not heard,  And I omit to pray,'Father, thy will be done' to-day,For my will goes the other way,  And it were perjury!

XXXV.

DISENCHANTMENT

It dropped so low in my regard  I heard it hit the ground,And go to pieces on the stones  At bottom of my mind;Yet blamed the fate that fractured, less  Than I reviled myselfFor entertaining plated wares  Upon my silver shelf.

XXXVI.

LOST FAITH

To lose one's faith surpasses  The loss of an estate,Because estates can be  Replenished, – faith cannot.Inherited with life,  Belief but once can be;Annihilate a single clause,  And Being's beggary.

XXXVII.

LOST JOY

I had a daily bliss  I half indifferent viewed,Till sudden I perceived it stir, —  It grew as I pursued,Till when, around a crag,  It wasted from my sight,Enlarged beyond my utmost scope,  I learned its sweetness right.

XXXVIII

I worked for chaff, and earning wheat  Was haughty and betrayed.What right had fields to arbitrate  In matters ratified?I tasted wheat, – and hated chaff,  And thanked the ample friend;Wisdom is more becoming viewed  At distance than at hand.

XXXIX

Life, and Death, and Giants  Such as these, are still.Minor apparatus, hopper of the mill,Beetle at the candle,  Or a fife's small fame,Maintain by accident  That they proclaim.

XL.

ALPINE GLOW

Our lives are Swiss, —  So still, so cool,  Till, some odd afternoon,The Alps neglect their curtains,  And we look farther on.Italy stands the other side,  While, like a guard between,The solemn Alps,The siren Alps,  Forever intervene!

XLI.

REMEMBRANCE

Remembrance has a rear and front, —  'T is something like a house;It has a garret also  For refuse and the mouse,Besides, the deepest cellar  That ever mason hewed;Look to it, by its fathoms  Ourselves be not pursued.

XLII

To hang our head ostensibly,  And subsequent to findThat such was not the posture  Of our immortal mind,Affords the sly presumption  That, in so dense a fuzz,You, too, take cobweb attitudes  Upon a plane of gauze!

XLIII.

THE BRAIN

The brain is wider than the sky,  For, put them side by side,The one the other will include  With ease, and you beside.The brain is deeper than the sea,  For, hold them, blue to blue,The one the other will absorb,  As sponges, buckets do.The brain is just the weight of God,  For, lift them, pound for pound,And they will differ, if they do,  As syllable from sound.

XLIV

The bone that has no marrow;  What ultimate for that?It is not fit for table,  For beggar, or for cat.A bone has obligations,  A being has the same;A marrowless assembly  Is culpabler than shame.But how shall finished creatures  A function fresh obtain? —Old Nicodemus' phantom  Confronting us again!

XLV.

THE PAST

The past is such a curious creature,  To look her in the faceA transport may reward us,  Or a disgrace.Unarmed if any meet her,  I charge him, fly!Her rusty ammunition  Might yet reply!

XLVI

To help our bleaker parts  Salubrious hours are given,Which if they do not fit for earth  Drill silently for heaven.

XLVII

What soft, cherubic creatures  These gentlewomen are!One would as soon assault a plush  Or violate a star.Such dimity convictions,  A horror so refinedOf freckled human nature,  Of Deity ashamed, —It's such a common glory,  A fisherman's degree!Redemption, brittle lady,  Be so, ashamed of thee.

XLVIII.

DESIRE

Who never wanted, – maddest joy  Remains to him unknown:The banquet of abstemiousness  Surpasses that of wine.Within its hope, though yet ungrasped  Desire's perfect goal,No nearer, lest reality  Should disenthrall thy soul.

XLIX.

PHILOSOPHY

It might be easier  To fail with land in sight,Than gain my blue peninsula  To perish of delight.

L.

POWER

You cannot put a fire out;  A thing that can igniteCan go, itself, without a fan  Upon the slowest night.You cannot fold a flood  And put it in a drawer, —Because the winds would find it out,  And tell your cedar floor.

LI

A modest lot, a fame petite,  A brief campaign of sting and sweet  Is plenty! Is enough!A sailor's business is the shore,  A soldier's – balls. Who asketh moreMust seek the neighboring life!

LII

Is bliss, then, such abyssI must not put my foot amissFor fear I spoil my shoe?I'd rather suit my footThan save my boot,For yet to buy another pairIs possibleAt any fair.But bliss is sold just once;The patent lostNone buy it any more.

LIII.

EXPERIENCE

I stepped from plank to plank  So slow and cautiously;The stars about my head I felt,  About my feet the sea.I knew not but the next  Would be my final inch, —This gave me that precarious gait  Some call experience.

LIV.

THANKSGIVING DAY

One day is there of the series  Termed Thanksgiving day,Celebrated part at table,  Part in memory.Neither patriarch nor pussy,  I dissect the play;Seems it, to my hooded thinking,  Reflex holiday.Had there been no sharp subtraction  From the early sum,Not an acre or a caption  Where was once a room,Not a mention, whose small pebble  Wrinkled any bay, —Unto such, were such assembly,  'T were Thanksgiving day.

LV.

CHILDISH GRIEFS

Softened by Time's consummate plush,  How sleek the woe appearsThat threatened childhood's citadel  And undermined the years!Bisected now by bleaker griefs,  We envy the despairThat devastated childhood's realm,  So easy to repair.

II. LOVE

I.

CONSECRATION

Proud of my broken heart since thou didst break it,  Proud of the pain I did not feel till thee,Proud of my night since thou with moons dost slake it,  Not to partake thy passion, my humility.

II.

LOVE'S HUMILITY

My worthiness is all my doubt,  His merit all my fear,Contrasting which, my qualities  Do lowlier appear;Lest I should insufficient prove  For his beloved need,The chiefest apprehension  Within my loving creed.So I, the undivine abode  Of his elect content,Conform my soul as 't were a church  Unto her sacrament.

III.

LOVE

Love is anterior to life,  Posterior to death,Initial of creation, and  The exponent of breath.

IV.

SATISFIED

One blessing had I, than the rest  So larger to my eyesThat I stopped gauging, satisfied,  For this enchanted size.It was the limit of my dream,  The focus of my prayer, —A perfect, paralyzing bliss  Contented as despair.I knew no more of want or cold,  Phantasms both become,For this new value in the soul,  Supremest earthly sum.The heaven below the heaven above  Obscured with ruddier hue.Life's latitude leant over-full;  The judgment perished, too.Why joys so scantily disburse,  Why Paradise defer,Why floods are served to us in bowls, —  I speculate no more.

V.

WITH A FLOWER

When roses cease to bloom, dear,  And violets are done,When bumble-bees in solemn flight  Have passed beyond the sun,The hand that paused to gather  Upon this summer's dayWill idle lie, in Auburn, —  Then take my flower, pray!

VI.

SONG

Summer for thee grant I may be  When summer days are flown!Thy music still when whippoorwill  And oriole are done!For thee to bloom, I'll skip the tomb  And sow my blossoms o'er!Pray gather me, Anemone,  Thy flower forevermore!

VII.

LOYALTY

Split the lark and you'll find the music,  Bulb after bulb, in silver rolled,Scantily dealt to the summer morning,  Saved for your ear when lutes be old.Loose the flood, you shall find it patent,  Gush after gush, reserved for you;Scarlet experiment! sceptic Thomas,  Now, do you doubt that your bird was true?

VIII

To lose thee, sweeter than to gain  All other hearts I knew.'T is true the drought is destitute,  But then I had the dew!The Caspian has its realms of sand,  Its other realm of sea;Without the sterile perquisite  No Caspian could be.

IX

  Poor little heart!  Did they forget thee?Then dinna care! Then dinna care!  Proud little heart!  Did they forsake thee?Be debonair! Be debonair!  Frail little heart!  I would not break thee:Could'st credit me? Could'st credit me?  Gay little heart!  Like morning gloryThou'll wilted be; thou'll wilted be!

X.

FORGOTTEN

There is a word  Which bears a sword  Can pierce an armed man.It hurls its barbed syllables,—  At once is mute again.But where it fellThe saved will tell  On patriotic day,Some epauletted brother  Gave his breath away.Wherever runs the breathless sun,  Wherever roams the day,There is its noiseless onset,  There is its victory!Behold the keenest marksman!  The most accomplished shot!Time's sublimest target  Is a soul 'forgot'!

XI

I've got an arrow here;  Loving the hand that sent it,I the dart revere.Fell, they will say, in 'skirmish'!  Vanquished, my soul will know,By but a simple arrow  Sped by an archer's bow.

XII.

THE MASTER

He fumbles at your spirit  As players at the keysBefore they drop full music on;  He stuns you by degrees,Prepares your brittle substance  For the ethereal blow,By fainter hammers, further heard,  Then nearer, then so slowYour breath has time to straighten,  Your brain to bubble cool, —Deals one imperial thunderbolt  That scalps your naked soul.

XIII

Heart, we will forget him!  You and I, to-night!You may forget the warmth he gave,  I will forget the light.When you have done, pray tell me,  That I my thoughts may dim;Haste! lest while you're lagging,  I may remember him!

XIV

Father, I bring thee not myself, —  That were the little load;I bring thee the imperial heart  I had not strength to hold.The heart I cherished in my own  Till mine too heavy grew,Yet strangest, heavier since it went,  Is it too large for you?

XV

We outgrow love like other things  And put it in the drawer,Till it an antique fashion shows  Like costumes grandsires wore.

XVI

Not with a club the heart is broken,    Nor with a stone;A whip, so small you could not see it.    I've knownTo lash the magic creature    Till it fell,Yet that whip's name too noble    Then to tell.Magnanimous of bird    By boy descried,To sing unto the stone    Of which it died.

XVII.

WHO?

My friend must be a bird,    Because it flies!Mortal my friend must be,    Because it dies!Barbs has it, like a bee.Ah, curious friend,    Thou puzzlest me!

XVIII

He touched me, so I live to knowThat such a day, permitted so,  I groped upon his breast.It was a boundless place to me,And silenced, as the awful sea  Puts minor streams to rest.And now, I'm different from before,As if I breathed superior air,  Or brushed a royal gown;My feet, too, that had wandered so,My gypsy face transfigured now  To tenderer renown.

XIX.

DREAMS

Let me not mar that perfect dream  By an auroral stain,But so adjust my daily night  That it will come again.

XX.

NUMEN LUMEN

I live with him, I see his face;  I go no more awayFor visitor, or sundown;  Death's single privacy,The only one forestalling mine,  And that by right that hePresents a claim invisible,  No wedlock granted me.I live with him, I hear his voice,  I stand alive to-dayTo witness to the certainty  Of immortalityTaught me by Time, – the lower way,  Conviction every day, —That life like this is endless,  Be judgment what it may.

XXI.

LONGING

I envy seas whereon he rides,  I envy spokes of wheelsOf chariots that him convey,  I envy speechless hillsThat gaze upon his journey;  How easy all can seeWhat is forbidden utterly  As heaven, unto me!I envy nests of sparrows  That dot his distant eaves,The wealthy fly upon his pane,  The happy, happy leavesThat just abroad his window  Have summer's leave to be,The earrings of Pizarro  Could not obtain for me.I envy light that wakes him,  And bells that boldly ringTo tell him it is noon abroad, —  Myself his noon could bring,Yet interdict my blossom  And abrogate my bee,Lest noon in everlasting night  Drop Gabriel and me.